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Blogging Time ~~

2006-04-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

sian .... this week no long weekend for me .... booked out yesterday afternoon ... and i need to report to camp by 2100 today ... haix .... quite tired ... last week was like a running week for us ... other than monday ... tuesday wednesday and friday run 2.4km ... thursday run slow pace for 5km ... and guess there will be longer distance run this week ...

i still cant swim after 2 to 3 swimming lessons ... my hands and legs cannot communicate leh ... cmi man .. lolz... but i still need to master the most basic breast stroke and trap water ... cause thats our "cat 2" test.. ( cat2 test = breaststroke swim for 100m, trapping water for 5 mins and jumping from the platform down into the pool of the height 5m)

hurted my kneecap yesterday during ippt skill training ... didnt land properly while doing the bunny jump ... now not much of the problem ... will be well for the coming training this week ... erm... this weekend i will be looking forward to ... cause of the labour day next monday ... and most likely will be having long weekends again ...

some of my army friends did some research for the "hell week" ... they said its very "xiong" .. lolz.. although now army is much more welfare ... but this hell week aint gotta be easy on us ...
imagine you will be training whole day and night ... and punish by them now and then ... 5 days 5 hrs of sleep ( if i'm not wrong) ... unable to tell you the details clearly now ... will be telling you all next blog ... those instructors even stationed a bell at one location for anyone to ring it ... meaning to give up ... and he will fail the hell week ... hope by then.. i am mentally and physically prepared for it ...

thats all for today ... more to come for next blog ... stay tune .. lolz.. please pardon me if i forget to update my blog ... sometimes i really forget about it ... take care everyone ...

Tired Weekends ...

2006-03-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

Surprise!!!! i am able to blog on monday ... lolz.. all thanks to navy lor.. dragged us down to east coast park to help out the bialthon on saturday and sunday ... and friday no early book out for me ... sian leh.. friday we guys need to stay in and fall in at 6am the next morning for the bialthon rehearsal ... so many things to do sia.. erm ... if u ask me to use words to describe .. i guess we are being a slave over there ... the rehearsal ended at 1500 ... and we are released from there ... but i need to report back to camp that night 2200 .. argh.. o yah .. and we guys need to wake up on sunday 3am ..

1.5km swim and 10km run ... i am going to take part next year if i am well prepared ... its going to be very fun ... in the girls' open ... i was impressed by one girl at her early 20's ... she finished the race 1st with timing 1hr15mins ... i am wondering how come she so "li hai"... until today i read the newspaper ... then found out that she was from the national swimming team ... well... lolz..

actually we need to go back on tuesday 1300 ... but luckily WO rewards us by delaying the time to book in .. so tml i need to book in by 2100 ... hahaha... erm.. guess next week i will get to book out very soon ... so happy .. lolz.. i need to buy a running shoe this week ... the new balance and brooks from navy.. really cannot make it ... lousy shoe ... lousy support ... but look like i need to spend money again .. hai ...

*Never Say Die* <--- Copyright from sr ... lolz..

1st Booking Out ....

2006-03-19T09:10:00.000+08:00

Finally ... never in my whole life that i cherish weekends ... now i do ... lolz.. got to book out on friday ... didnt really expected that ... though some of our batch people caught smoking red-handed ... guess they just give us face for the 1st week nia .. wun be so lucky the next time ...

everyday running and running ... doing push-ups ... visiting gym ... doing chin-ups ... early in the morning gotta fall in at 6am ... lunch at 12 noon ... dinner at 5pm ... night snack at 7pm ... oh gosh ... hahaa... 4 meals a day .... dun even dare to skip any of the meals ... scare later dun have energy to do those execrises .... all i know by the end of the BMT .. i need to get min. --> 12 chin-ups ... 2.4km run under 9.45 mins .... standing board jump 240cm ... shuttle run below 10 sec .. and 40 sit-ups ...

i believe as time goes by .... the bond will get stronger .... but still theres some guys i dislike ... their attitude and character cmi sia... not on de... complain here and there .... cant they just understand theres nothing much we can do .. other than to follow the rules and the instructions ..

went to grandmum house yesterday evening ... she cooked a lot for me ... hahaha ... of course ... her cooking is the best .... havent been eating anything nice inside the camp .. but hor.. there she goes again ... asked me a lot of personnal stuffs .. like got gf mah? where ur gf stay? how come didnt bring her over to ah ma's house? etc ... lolz... -_- ... buay ta han ... ;)

going to book in later this evening liao .. a bit sian ... my weekends are short ... i think i am booking out next sunday ... coz my side there got events on saturday ... still got 7 days more to go ... each and everyday i am counting the number of days to book out .... so pathetic ... lolz.. to console myself and the rest of the guys.. hahaha.. and HOPEFULLY there's no confinement this week ... as they already said ... everything including training will getting tougher and tougher ....
and hope everyone can united as one ... and everyone can pass the course ... to be a diver ... ;)

*No Pain No Gain ... 9th of March 2008 to ORD *

17 Days More To Go ....

2006-02-21T11:11:00.000+08:00

It has been 5 months ever since i stop blogging ... there's too much things to blog whats happening for these 5 months ... just state something will do i guess ... just want to update this blog once in a blue moon ...

17 days more to NDU ... actually theres too many friends that i wish to meet before i go army ... sec school mates , poly mates etc .... saw mavis at yiwei's house , well , guess it should be enough ... didnt talk to her though .. hopefully she can find her Mr.Right in NTU soon ..

missing lishan .... she's the girl that will be forever in my heart ... didnt contact her since we broke off years back ... i could not bring myself to call her even though her hp no. is still up in my head .. if i am not wrong , she is studying in SMU at the moment ... good luck to her studies ...

Annabelle ... this girl har , ... erm.. didnt tot of that i and her will be together in sec school .... guess fate brings us together ... she's older than me ... i gave her my "first time" ... lolz.. i mean my first kiss .... somemore i still remember the venue ... at ECP ... hahaha ... the longest relationship i ever involved .... =) ... happens to chat with her a couple of times recently ... but thanks to her for brighten up my sec school life .. she's a clever and lazy bum ... taking private Us now ... take care girl ...

Liew Weiling .... she's a friend of mine .. get to know her thru lishan and jinhui during poly times .. jinhui's ex .... cute , cheerful , adorable, native, blur, silly girl that i ever seen before ... hanging out with her , the atmosphere will never be tensed up ... once she starts laughing ... haha ... u really feel like walking a distance away from her ... she will attracts attention man ... lolz ... didnt get to contact her ever since i broke off with lishan ... which is 3 years back ... i regretted ... Ironically ... u know what? she met with an motorbike accident this month and no longer be with us ... went to her funeral ... how much i miss her laugher and her lousy singing ...
shes just at her early 20s ... haiz...

that teaches me a lesson ... life and love is really unpredictable ... Its easy to be content with life ... but hard to live without regrets ....

Maybe this is the ending ...

2005-09-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

just maybe i should close this blog ... dunno wat to say or do ... feeling sad and down .... the chapter of this r/s is going to end .... i cried ... always tot i can cherish this r/s well .. but then ... i fail to do so ...

sorry ...

Why?? Why???

2005-09-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

I am very very disappointed ... angry .... and even feel like crying .... whats the point of saying sorry again and again if you remain unchanged .... why you have to be so self-centered ...??? Am i a nobody to you afterall ??? I'm not tired meh? .....

Why cant you just put yourself in my shoe , and understand how i am feeling at the moment ?? ... What else u have to say then ? sorry again ??

Simply no mood at all .... and tot today my off day will be a good one for me .... and once again ... it turns out to be like this .... What the **** ....

Dun feel like saying it liao .. it just blows my top ... Bye !!!!

confusion ....

2005-08-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

gotta end of august soon ... everything happens so fast ... this couple of days ... damn crowded at cold storage ... dun have the time to just slack around man ... although now cold storage is not as fun and enjoyable as before ... but still not bad after all ... anyway ... most probably i'll be quitting the job around Oct or Nov ... gotta give myself some time to play and fool around before i go army ...

been thinking a lot of things .... such as "should i sign-on?", " sign-on as ? " , " should i study the course (design) i am really interested in ?" , "how expensive it gotta be ?" , etc .... simply too much for me to note it all down ... guess everyone will reach this stage where you are standing in the middle of the junction .. and there is different direction for you to choose from ... once u choose the wrong direction .. its petty hard for you to go back again ... i dun wish to regret what i did in the past ... by taking IT course ..

really feel like studying after army ... but i know its gotta be very expensive .... or should i stop wasting $$ to study .. the situation now is that theres no way for me to save up tat much of $$ for me myself to study what i really want ... till now ... i'm giving half of my salary to my parents .... and thats really left me with not much ... i believe i go army .. they will still request for spilting half my salary to give them as allowance .... if thats the way ... how long will i have to save the $$ enable to study ....

i'm still 20 ... i know i'm not that young anymore ... but i still wanan to play and do things i feel and wanna to do ... but now ... looks like i'm starting to support my family ... the burden will be heavier as i getting older ... i am tired ... and restless .... and i am complaining why i am broke most of the times ... perhaps i need some fresh air to breathe .... i hope they wun hinder what i wanna pursue ... the happiest thing on earth is do the things you wanna do ... live without regrets ... and thats what life is all about ... dun you think so ? ...

Hope Next Week Never Come!~

2005-08-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

reached home late yesterday ... and called dear ... dunno why these few days really feel like listening to her voice.. feel like taking a look at her ... she told me yesterday that she wun be meeting me on monday ... haiz ... so sad lor .. also dunno wat to say and nothing much i can do too ... guess she must be busy with projects or other things bah ...

had muscle cramp at my leg while playing tensive basketball yesterday ... didnt do enough warm up ... told dear yesterday about this on the conversation... but she didnt say anything ... think she too engrossed to the "superstar" results on the tv ... really do have a lot of things to tell her ... but maybe i dun like ppl to be inattentive or do others things while talking on phone ... giving me the feeling that the other party is not interested at all ...

a few days ago ... told her that i will be informing her the off-days i have every week ... then let her plan and decide which day she wanna meet me bah ... guess thru this way .. will be better for her ... and better for me also ... i wun have to keep asking and pestering her whether which day she will be available..

today and tomorrow i am having my off days ... so glad having off days on friday and saturday ...
but dun think she will be free either ... since she didnt say she wanna meet me ... guess i have to plan something else to keep myself entertain ... today ..erm.. will be meeting weisheng they all again .. for another basketball session in the evening ... as for tomorrow ... erm.. not confirm yet ... but i really hope i can spend the day with her ...

is already 2 months ... this relationship erm... dunno how to describe ... most of the relationship i had in the past ... at this point of time ... should be honey moon period ... guess i not get used to it ... thats all i have to say bah ....

2 months ~~

2005-08-16T08:59:00.000+08:00

it has been 2 months ... so fast ... just a blink of eye ... but time aint by our side at all .... dear is busy with her school work .... having times with family and friends ... and me will be busy from morning till evening .. and from evening work cold storage till 11pm plus ... and therefore reach home ard midnight ... we only meet up once or twice every week ...

mum called me yesterday ... complaining about my handphone bill for last month usage ... haiz.. dunno what to say also .. i'm in the wrong anyway ... although i didnt get to see the bill myself ... but petty sure its not cheap ... at the same time ... got my pay for attachments around $120 ... my mum has been rushing me to give her $$ .. oh man .. i wanna buy lot of things .. i wanna apply uob visa card ... i wanan go out and have fun .. i wanna go holidays ... and all the above i cant do it without $$ right ? ...

i know by giving mum some $$ will ease her burden .. but who's going to ease my burden? forget it... hahaha... just complaining to the bloggie ...

happy 2nd month dear !!!! hehe .... Muackz .... nothing gotta stop me from loving you ... take care ... and do miss me .. ;)

Why? haiz...

2005-08-12T09:03:00.000+08:00

Its friday morning right now ... such a good and cooling weather outside ... really feel like laze around .... by lazing around will allow me to go back to sleep again ... hahaha ... dun doubt me :P
yesterday has been a tiring day for me ... having a slight fever and a serious sore throat ... dun really feel like talking much ... and in the end boss sms early in the morning to ask me whether can i work for him that evening ... what can i do? looks like they are short of cashier once again ... hahaha .. it has always been that case ...

so terrible ... having sore throat ... still have to force myself to greet the customers... argh ... and although yesterday the crowds still so-so ... but my heart has been wandering around .. thinking about shirley ... erm ... for those who dun know ... she was once one of the supervisors cum cashier ... been taking good care of us .... sometimes even buy things for us to eat etc .... but havent been see-ing her for the past one month plus .... so i tot she just simply taking some annual leaves ... but to my surprise ... she was sacked ... its really shocked me ... that it must be something very very serious ... and one of the senior cashier who is close to her too ... told me that it was due to she made errands to the balancing .. because since she is the supervisor .. she does have the key to do some amendments for every cashier machine ...

eg. the company gives every one of the cashier $5 base .. which means after your balancing .. if anyone of us short within $5 ... the company will cover for it ... and if its over ... you will have to pay the amount ... and if she made errands for every cashier balancing ... and took $4-$5 bucks from every cashier everyday .... ( because the company will cover for it ) .... just imagine ... everyday we will having more than 10 cashiers working , including morning and night shift .. one cashier she took 5 bucks .... 1 day = $50 bucks extra ... 1 week = $250 extra ... haiz .. but the company found out long long time ago .. that she has been doing this ... giving warnings to her .. but she didnt change .. and in the end she was handed over to the police , was fined ... and a bad record is under her name ... guess it will be harder for her to get another job next time ..

tomorrow most probably will be meeting weisheng they all play badminton in the morning ... really dun wish to work that afternoon ... so tiring .. but what can i do ... i really wish to have some private times with dear and friends ... but while talking about it ... it will be quite meaningless to go out with little or no $$ ... that junhui hor.. really wana si qi wo le .. got $$ to bet on soccer .. but wanna delay to pay me back my $$ ... -.- erm ... gotta tried my luck on this weekends as a punter .. hahaha ... hope possible can get some extra income ... ;)

dear: love ya always .. muackz ....

Fireworks ... Esplanade

2005-08-10T09:21:00.000+08:00

for the past few days ... saturday .. sunday and monday ... been playing hours of mahjong with friends .... hahaha ... dun think i have enough of sleep ... and i fall sick on monday morning .... having fever and sore throat .... so unlucky ... promised to accompany girlfriend watch fireworks at Esplanade ... no matter what ... i forced myself to go instead of resting at home .... it has been one week since i saw her .... i really dun wanna miss any chance to meet up with her ....

damn crowded at city hall .... saw lots of people wearing reds ... like wearing the school uniform ... so united .... thats why i like about singapore .... united we stand ... ;) and there she goes again .. SHE's LATE ... lolz... but me get used to it .... girls take longer time to get prepared anyway ... we went shopping at citilink ... suntec ... then finally settled down at tcc .. near the HMV ... waiting for weisheng they all to meet us ....

then together we headed to Esplanade and reached there ard 6 plus plus but looks like 1/2 of the singapore population is gathering over there.. so crowded ... get a nice place ... waited for 1 to 2 hrs for that fireworks to start .. and when the sky is getting darker ..i know the time is gotta be up ... and soon ... the fireworks started ... hahaha.. first time in my life to view fireworks in such a close distance ... so high up into the dark sky ...really impressive ... took some pics of it too .... really worth the time i have been waiting ... but such wonderful times only lasts ..erm... less than 10 mins i think .. lolz..

and then all of us take our way to the exit ... so hot ... humid.. and CROWDED .... and people pushing here and there .... damn ... it really takes a long time for us to get out of the place ... and we find a place to have our dinner ... and then headed to city hall mrt station ... and some incident happened --> a group of malay guys started fighting ... also not sure whats going on ... but both parties of malay guys keep kicking and punching one another ... making a scene at the control station ... and one of malay guy even tried to use belt to wrack the other parties .... and guess they ran off b4 the police reached there ....

i wonder when is next time i will be having some private time with dear .... is not i dun wanna to go out together with a group of friends ... just that sometimes i hope to have times with just u and me ...

Muackz..

2005-07-31T00:55:00.000+08:00

been playing basketball again ... in the afternoon yesterday ... so fun ... lolz.. but the problem is .. i guess i hurted both of my ankle.. hahaha ... anyway.. i dun care ...

also get to receive dear's sms yesterday nite ... hope the days ahead will be a wonderful journey for the both of us ... i will try my best to understand you better as time goes by .. chatted with boss today ... he said he really need people to work for him on weekdays ... then hope i can help him ... i know he is a very understanding person ... the moment i said i scare i dun have time for girlfriend etc ... he said he will give me 2 to 3 off days per week .. lolz ..

erm ... think i need to talk and sort it out with dear liao .. get to take a look at her school timetable .. then arrange with boss which off days to take every week .. so that if that day she wanna meet me ... i will be available ...

* Wo Yao Wo Men Xing Fu ... *

Conversation

2005-07-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

chatted with her on phone yesterday nite ... guess everything is solved ... all i need to say i have said ... hope i wun get to make her sad again ... all the things i have done ... i will think of you first ... coz i care about ur feeling .... take care .. love you always ...

I'm disappointed...

2005-07-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

haiz... today didnt receive any sms from her at all .... i been waiting for her to sms me something ... even it is a forward msg ... i'll be happy .... i dunno wat to say ... i'm not angry ... i'm just very disappointed ....

today reached Sembawang Naval Base ... my heart not there at all .. been wondering whether are you really that busy ... so busy that you cant even have the time to sms me? ... haiz ... is it have to wait till u read my blog .. then u know whats going on? so what if i dun blog .. u not going to realize anything? or i just demand too much from you?

been thinking hard on this ... then i slipped off from the stairs while walking down ... sprained my ankle again ... right ankle still ( sprained my right ankle not long ago ) ... diaoz ... so painful ... suanz le ... let it be bah ... no one is going to care anyway ... tomorrow and on friday .. i'll be playing basketball ... hopefully someone just make my ankle worse ... then i wun be able to walk for the time being .. and i can sleep as much as i can ... so that i wun be bothered by other things ...

thats all i gotta say .... even though i am still waiting for your sms ... but most probably u have read the blog ... so no point .... haiz.. dun wanna say anymore le ... byee bloggie ...

Cancer Girls ...

2005-07-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

yawnz... tiring .... went to jurong polyclinic today to get my eye checked ... the eye lid there been swollen for the past few days.. argh... damn ugly... sian ...

better dun stay up too late today... tomorrow gotta wake up early in the morning ... gotta reach Admiralty MRT station at 7.30am ... then take shuttle bus to Sembawang Naval Base ... i heard my frenz saying that it gotta take the whole day ... hopefully i will be able to meet some friends over there .. and wondering its fun anot.. hahaha ...

erm.. thats something i find myself very weird ... maybe i started to like "cancer" girls ... haha .. the moment i saw kelly poon from channel U "superstar" .. i liked her alot ... her appearance, her singing just attracts me ... haha ... my ex from "cancer" .. girlfriend now also from "cancer" ...

just viewed some horoscope website talking abt "cancer" people... it goes .....

1. People with Cancer horoscope thrive on admiration and praise

2. They hates rejection and is extremely cautious about making any commitment.

3. They will try to avoid giving an answer, and whatever you do, don't try to rush them into one, usually if the answer is no, they will go to all lengths to avoid the subject.

4. They has an excellent memory and a jealous nature

5. To them betrayal is devastating, and it will take a very long time for them to forgive,
and to top it off, they may never forget

6. Emotional and financial security is of the utmost importance in this relationship.

7. They don't like frivolous spending, since it means a loss of control and security.

8. They are affectionate, romantic, sympathetic, imaginative, and quite seductive.

9. if they are in love, Cancerians will cherish and protect their partner always.

so "cancer" girls, do u all agree? if so .. please do reply in my tag box ... hahaha ;) today havent been receive her sms the whole day .. except in the morning ... that i sms-ed her in the first place ... i'm broke ... and since school has started for u ... think u should be quite busy .... when u are free .. then sms me bah ... maybe its time for me to work at Cold Storage 6 days per week from next week onwards ... haiz ...

Wish: Hope you can get to understand me better ....
Aim: Wanna you to be happy ...
Dream: Kelly Poon ...

* There's nothing much i can ask for ... you are what you are meant to be ... *

....

2005-07-23T00:18:00.000+08:00

i really dunno wat to say .... how to express .... wat to do either ... really have no idea at all ... u know? help me then ... guess i utter rubbish once again ...

i really hope u can understand me day by day ....

*bottled up things to myself* ...

SOF ---> Stubborn Old Fool~~~

2005-07-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

tot today is another good day for me ... but didnt expect it to turn out like this ... sian ...

aiyah.. me really dun have the mood to blog the incident happened today ... i need some sleep ... then i should forget everything ... and there goes again ... tomorrow will be a better day ..!!!

i dunno wat to expect for this coming saturday ... haiz... u told me is very awkward going out with me and 3-4 of my friends who you are not familar with ... then i wonder how am i going to feel this saturday going out with 6-8 of your friends .... plus after today incident ... will i just get dump aside again?

maybe i am thinking too much ..... i just wanna you to be happy .... love you ... Muackz...

Unfair?!?

2005-07-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

Woo~~ London won the vote to host 2012 Olmpics .. aint easy at all ... it was a tight competition ... if i am not wrong .. London won by 4 votes... oh man ... to host Olmpics leh.. such a big and major event ... dun think Singapore ever got the chance to host it ... lolz..

What a disappointment for those french people ... they seem like they are well-prepared for it ... but the result doesnt go their way.. a let down for them ... watched the news yesterday ... think there's a french guy who taking part in the bidding competition is very unhappy with the outcome ... requests to recount the votes ... sore loser?....but i'm petty sure the result is finalized ...

And well ... looks what i heard over the news this morning ... 4 bursts hit London, killing at least 37 and injuring more than 700 people , ... this happened after the day London won the bid ... so coincidence? Is that really Al-Qaeda terror group's doings? still unknown yet ... guess these few days ... news will be reporting more information about this ... sometimes really wonder what terrorists are thinking ... they are the ones using suicide-bombing ... damn ...

haha.. oops.. enough of all the news reporting... yesterday went out with dear to PS ... walked ard ...then had our dinner there ... really enjoy myself being with her ... no doubts about that ... and i like the way she dress herself ... keep up the good work dear ... ^^ .. lolz... so fast ... another 1 week more to 1 month annv.... although she doesnt talk much ... but the moment i see her .. its just brighten up my day ... and she's a bit blur sometimes .. hahaha.. me xi guan jiu hao .. ;)

*Muackz ... Love ya*

Disappointed~~

2005-07-04T21:02:00.000+08:00

feeling bit disappointed ... thats all ... think i wun say or explain what and who causes it .... this kinda of thing will be better for me to keep it within myself .... maybe its just a minor thing ... maybe its not ... dun wish to talk and think about it again ...

sleep early and forgets everything ... thats what i gotta do ... tomorrow will be a better day .. i promise ~~

*lights off ... nites everyone, and bloggie ^^ *

Argh... no $$ ... anyone wanna yang wo? lolz..

2005-06-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. spend $$ again... oh my gosh ... anyone willingly to support me, erm.. like giving me pocket money? lolz... i really dun mind slacking at home throughout the whole week, doing nothing ... rotting, watching tv, play basketball, cook instant noodles ( to save costs) , sleeping ...

went to PS after work ... together with yihwen, serene, jason and jasmine ... all ICES friends ...
had our dinner at Lao BeiJing ... not bad leh.. u ppl out there .. can go try try ... ^^ .. spend ard 12 bucks on that liao .. -.- ... sian ... catch a movie --> "End of the World" ... hahaha ... haiz..
lousy movie ... dunno wat to say ... though it should be quite nice ... then so-so only... do not have any interesting story plot.. stupid ending .... my advice to u .... dont watch ... watch vcd ... lolz.. i am trying to save ur $$ okay?

as fast .. July coming liao ... haiz ... dunno consider happy or unhappy? 12th of July --> ex's birthday... 16th of July --> one month with dear ... 20th of July --> 6th month anniv for ex ... 22th of July --> dear's birthday .. so happening ... @_@ ... just happened my ex and dear from cancer ... and tats maybe i getting to know cancers' girls .... how they behave etc bah ... although it doesnt reflect to every cancers' girls .. but roughly lor.. but thanks for this 2 girls ... being part of the chapters in my life ...

Yawnz.. lights off ... getting late le ... i still need to wake up tml morning for work de leh.. hahaha.. i wanna be a happy-go-lucky guy ... stay cheerful forever ... ^^

Broke ~~

2005-06-26T09:30:00.001+08:00

Sian ... i hate the feeling to be broke ... lolz.. i guess no one likes it .. hee .. erm.. saw a three quarter pant few days ago at bugis ... quite nice ... feel like buying it ... but as i said earlier... I AM BROKE ~~ ... lolz.. though it just costs ard 25 bucks ... and when one person is broke ... 25 bucks mean a lot of him ... ;)

I think i really need to plan to save some $$ ... gotta need to buy things when important dates are drawing near .. Finally... my ipod can work le.. hahaa ... ever since i bought it one month ago .. i havent been touching it ... and now guess i will have to buy the cover for my ipod ... argh.. $$ involve again .. lolz... if not .. i might scratch the ipod some ways or another ...

Yesterday out of the blues .. i asked weixiong whether he wanna to acc me if there's another "Superstar" this kinda of singing competition ... i know my standard de la.. but maybe just feel like going bah.. lose or win doesnt matter to me .. just go play play lor.. hahha ... frankly speaking .. we dun have the superstar look, superstar charisma, power and nice singing vocal..
so how to win ? but it will be better if they dun telecast it .. hahaha ... me very shy de lor... ;)

More than one week plus le ... hopefully everything goes smoothly ... tats all i pray.. nothing more i expect to get in return ... ^^

Joy~~~

2005-06-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

Yesh babe... i feel so happy... finally ~~ hopefully this is a good start to everything .... A GOOD START .. ;)

Journals..

2005-06-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

Okays... let's blog about saturday first ...

Have to come back to company on saturday morning to update their PCs' windows and office patches ... oh man .. argh.. so i reach ICES ard 9am ... then start doing my patchings ard 10am .. and i need to leave the company ard 4.30pm .. coz thats the only bus available for the time slot on saturday .. if i'm going to miss this bus ... guess i will have to camp at Jurong Island then .. lolz..

Suppose to meet mavis (catching a movie) at orchard in the afternoon ... due to the arrival of the bus available .. i have no choice but to wait till 4.30pm ... and the bus will therefore bring me back to jurong east only... hahaha .. but i did message her, telling her that i'll be late ... take a cab down to orchard after that.. and reach there ard 6pm-615pm i think ... ( includes traffic jam, waiting time for cab and the time the bus takes to travel from Jurong Island back to Jurong East )..

We actually plan to catch a movie( Madagascar or Monster in Law ) at cine ... but both shows ( 6pm++ and 7pm++ time slot) seatings either more than 3/4 occupied or left with the first 3 rows ... haha .. so we make our way to Lido then ... but luckily did manage to catch Madagascar for 6.30pm time slot over there .. phew .. Madagascar really very nice to watch .... storyline straight-forward ... characters very funny and cute .. worth watching .. no wonder their rating quite high ...

Then go Far East Plaza , Hereen etc .. walk walk ... then sent her till sengkang mrt station .. before i headed home from there.. then reached home ard 12 mid ++ lor..

On Sundays...

My brother disturb my dreams again.. -.- .. early in the morning( 8am ++ ) come into my room make so much noise.. ( he is playing online games) .. then slack at home till afternoon .. and i have to make my way to woodlands cold storage .. working from 4pm to 10pm .. requested to end work earlier .. because i need to meet my poly friends at cuppage ( party world) .. sang for 4 hrs and we went to cine to play billards ... then shared cab with my friend and reached home ard 4am .. lolz... *Yawnz*

Today ..

woke up at 6.30am ... 2 hrs of sleep ... i am sleepy rite now .. hahaha .. now here i am .. in the office blogging ... gotta do something to keep myself awake .. if not .. i will doze off ... i am sure of that :P .. hope i'll be back home asap ... i wanna sleep ... my eye lids are heavy... -.- ....

*Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.*

Psalm 32:1

Busy As Always ..

2005-05-27T10:49:00.000+08:00

Busy working .. busy playing .. busy meeting friends ... busy with almost everything ... although i always like to slack around and rot at home, but maybe such wonderful times gotta end soon... most likely will be going for national service few months later ( i havent receive the letter yet) ..

A few weeks ago, my poly friends and i, we form a soccer team .. actually we are soccer sickos ... lolz .. ever since year 1 .. our class guys and guys next class quite close ... and often played soccer after school together.. but luckily .. the matches we played against other opponents, the results aint tat bad afterall compared to we have thought in the first place... won 3 draw 2 lost 1 .. who will wish to join a team if the team played like s*** and lost every single match they played ... got our own jersey too .. with my name "Ah Guan" and number behind ... sound like Ah Gua hor.. argh.. anyway.. it doesnt matter to me ... by buying jerseys can prove unity to others .. i just like tat feeling ..

sick on last Tuesday ... down with flu and sore throat ... took a mc from doc .. and rest the whole morning .. but i went for netball in the evening .. hahaha ...no choice, i only can get to see yingxian on tues ... so better dun miss the chance .. if not .. i will regret ... by taking a look at her is already a blessing for me .. i'm not asking anything more than that .. after the netball session .. and dine with xia, grace sp, kw they all .. i reached home ard 11 plus .. and i have to wake up at 6.30am next morning for work .. *Yawnz*

Wednesday ar.. erm.. work as usual ... then slept early at 10 plus .. because i wanna watch the champion league final featuring AC Milan Vs Liverpool FC .. hahaha.. this kinda of match die die also cannot miss man ... and the match didnt disappoint me ... exciting and goal thrillers .. 3-3 for the final score ... and match goes to penalties after extra time .. the winner think i dun need to mention .. the results will be well spread through all medias .. ;)

And i was lucky yesterday .. able to see yingxian for the 2nd time this week .. because the netballers having a chalet a tanah merah resort ( ulu man !!) .. then kuan wen and i went there in the evening to join the girls.. reached home ard 1 plus ... * Yawnz x2 *

and now i'm at office working/"eating snake"/blogging/rotting .. lolz.. very tired this few days .. but enjoyable.. later have to work as cashier for woodlands cold storage in the evening .. and then with jasnice ... we will be heading to justin's house and play mahjong till the next morning .. hahaha ...

erm.. i talked too much again .. -.- .. and to vic " I blog liao okay? lolz.. and really "thanks for the previous blog hor.." :P ..

*Wang Bu Liao*

the outcome of nt blogging...

2005-05-24T13:00:00.000+08:00

who is this scary person?!! oh man!!! the screen of my laptop gonna crack soon!!! arGH!!!! heLp!!!

hey ppl...

basically i am here to blog la... but hor.. i am nt de person abv... who is oso this blog owner la..

i am de creator of this blog!!!

wahahahahahaha!!!~

actually is de owner lazy blog... so de creator be a veri nice person help him blog.. but i guess i shall come here n mess things up~!!!

lalalalalalala!!!~

eh... uncle... i duno wat to blog oso le la!!! wah lauz... watever.. haha!!

i shall not bully a sick person nw! haha!!!~

BLOGGED BY:-

Birthday

2005-05-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

Disappointed ...

It's May ..

2005-05-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Almost a month since i last blogged ... hahaha ... someone been threatening me to close down this blog for me .. lolz.. anyway ... been working nowadays lor ... from 8 am to 5.30pm working in Jurong Island ICES ... ICES = Instituition of Chemical Engineering And Science ... then after that .. rushing to Woodlands Cold Storage to work as cashier from 7pm to 11pm .. by the time i reach home .. ard midnight liao ... then tml gotta wake up ard 6.30 am ... then i have to go through the routine again and again ...

Most of the times ... me just have a proper meal for lunch ... and tats all ... no breakfast ... no dinner ... maybe reach home ard midnight after work .. just grab an apple to fill my stomach .. my mum tell me not to work for cold storage ... but still ... i just reply her .. it's is okay de ... coz i know by telling her this... at least she dun have to worry for me ...

a few days ago .. me finally take the first step to msg jinhui on msn .... its been dunno how long since we chat ... a lot of things happened to him though ... i can sense it ... i will always be there to lend u my listening ears whenever u need me .. tats what frenzs for ...

today finally i can sleep the whole day at home ... hopefully can get back all the sleep that i lost ...
but me been thinking a lot of things .. maybe becoz of this month bah .. , May ... just recalled how my ex celebrated my birthday with me ... argh ... suanz le ... tats history ... for this year ... i dun pray and wish much for anything le ... the higher i wish for ... the more disppointed i will get in the end ... dun u think so ? ...

Saturday Blues

2005-04-09T16:45:00.000+08:00

so bored ... ys they all in tekong liao ... hahaha ... wun be able to come out 3 weeks later .... so happy .... this whole week dun need to work ... finally that kinda of slacking life is back .. hahaha .. everyday can sleep late late .. wake up late late ... rot at home ... but everything gotta end real soon .. lolz ...

i shouldnt joke ard with my mum ... i was a bit angry with my brother again .... he's posting to rp .... IT course ... -.- .... and he insists to own a laptop ... and MUST be 512MB .. come on lor ... is not a must lor ... then in the end ... my mum bought him a laptop which costs ard 2300 ... oh man ... my mum has to pay by monthly instalments lor... from here .. u can see my mum dun have the cash to pay for it ... no choice but to head for monthly instalments ...

a MUST for laptop ? bull shit lor ... me myself IT leh .. dun think a laptop is tat important lor ... a thumb drive is the most important ... he just wasting my mum's money ... sometimes i feel like scolding my mum lor ... y must everything goes my brother's way .... he is just wanna show off ...
y dun save those cash ... and then buy a better computer at home ... and a thumb drive too ... anyway me going to camp soon le what ..2 years leh.. so most of the times he will be using the computer... whats the point of buying laptop ??? ...

then i joke ard with my mum ... telling her since she is getting my brother a laptop .. me also wanan something from her ---> ipod ... then she really go purchase a ipod mini for me while getting my brother the laptop .. paying by monthly instalments also ... argh ... i am working at that time .. so unable to call her back .... only know that she has ordered it ....

i feel so guilty ... i got the ipod mini yesterday ... i'm not happy at all lor.. maybe i feel that without this stupid thing really can ease my mum's burden by 50 bucks per month i guess ... tats really a lot to her ... plus the stupid laptop's instalment ... argh ... anyway .. me planned to pay the ipod mini instalments by myself ... hopefully she understands why am i doing this ... and hope my brother does pay the laptop instalments by himself ... knowing that 99.999% he will not pay for it ...

my brother dun even know whats the advantage and disadvantage of owning a laptop .... argh.. talking abt him ... just made me more angry and irriated ... guess there's a long way to go ... haiz...

days are numbered ...

2005-03-31T09:24:00.000+08:00

erm... looks like me gotta be alone soon ... yongsing will be going to ns 6 days later .... so fast ... and time is running out for him ... but hor .. he has planned to have dine with a girl today ... and another girl tml last week .. what a guy ... lolz .. dunno what to say man ... hopefully he enjoy himself what he is doing for this few days bah ..

got my pay ... yesh~~~ finally i do have some income in my bank acc ... i wanan buy lots of thing .... erm.. lets hope i can control myself by not spending too much ... hahaha ... this few week everyone is busy ... busy preparing for exams ... busy having exams ... so sian ...

erm.. think i need a haircut soon .... weather so humid ... is better and neat now to have a short hairstyle ... hahaha ... gotta think twice b4 i go cut it .... what am i gotta do today? evening i'm working .. anyone wanna come and visit me ? .... hahaha ... er... i am hungry ... now bai tian hor.. so i am xue sheng ... later go arrange the notes i need to prepare for my exams next week ...

sick ~~~

2005-03-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

sian ... these few days having diarrhea ... not feeling tat well though ... think friday me ate the wrong stuffs ... lolz... then food poison lor... and yet yesterday and today .. me continue to eat foods that are harmful to my stomach ... such as ... stringray la... sotong ... etc ... and most importantly.... me still havent see any doc ... lolz...

today meet yongsing and junhui for lunch ... then together we set off to holland v (breko) .. to drink coffee ... ivan , irene and joshua are there too ... just sitting down .... chit chatting lor... nothing much we can do ... it rains so heavily at that time ... lolz...

we have our dinner at nearby kopitiam .... then we go separate ways .... ( joshua rushing to other places ... ivan and irene heading to clementi ... me ys and jh heading to jurong east ) .... becoz junhui need to book in le ... he need to reach yck by 7.15pm ... me and ys take train to accompany jh from jurong east to yck ... hahaha ... then meet andy at cck ....

take a cab from there ... heading to bukit timah plaza ... meet zhenjia play pool at mambo ... hahaha.. so happening ... we play till ard 11pm .... then have our supper at nearby malay stalls ....
back home by cab b4 midnight ...

erm.. tml meeting team members 10am in school ... hahaha .. still need to do something for my project .... guess tml i'll be staying late in school bah .... to finish up the bloody project ... then tuesday presentation in the morning ... o yah... still got the report me havent touch yet ... ;) lolz...

1 day for me to touch up everything ... erm... think can la... shouldnt be a problem ... so fast ... march will be over soon .... i gotta get my pay ... lolz... think will be less than 450 .... argh .. not working a lot of days this month though ... been lazing ard ... haha ... then give half to parents .... then left ard 200 plus plus ... aiyo... where got enough ? lolz...

heyz mum and dad .... izzit possible hor... can the both of you stay away from my pay? i need to buy a lot of things leh... i'm not being selfish ... coz i need to satisfy my own needs ... lolz.. ;)
pls hor... hahaha

Agree Or DisAgree

2005-03-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

take my time slowly to forget abt everything ... erm .... on saturday .. after working ... had my supper near woodlands causeway point there with vera , ziyun , stanley and minghui ... haha ... that minghui hor.. really bth ... although i do not know him that well ... but he really like a jie mei to us .. lolz... the rest of us eating .. then he talked non-stop ... and started a lot of topic abt BGR stuffs ... oh man ... ard 12 midnight liao leh.. he still got the energy to talk so much ... hahaa ..

then he wanna to convince ziyun saying that nowadays girls are getting more flirt than guys ... and also more percentage of girls been into relationship b4 compare to guys ... ard our age ....
and hor .. i remember he said this " we guys can love girls ... but we will never able to understand them" hahaha .. quite meaningful .. is so hard to understand girls .... really leh.. ;)

on sunday ... went to justin(vera's bf)'s house to play mahjong .... justin really very rich .... living in upper thomson road ... faber garden .. oh man ... his house has 3 set of mahjong ... and 4 tables i think ... -.- .. world is so unfair .. lolz... me been there once last week .. played mahjong too ... actually hor.. playing mahjong is not my main motive .. i just wanna c justin's elder sister ... haiz... her sis really look like my ex .... maybe my ex does has a common face .. but hor.. really look alike lor.. is so hard not to look at her ... her sister is the "female" magazine editor i think ... somewhere ard that position ..

just viewed wee har's friendster ... oh man .. she's single ? i cant believe my own eyes .. i mean she been attached to kuan wen for ard 3 years lor.. since sec sch ... although i do not know what actually happens btw them .. but maybe exams are drawing near for wee har .. then she need time to study then pause the relationship for a while .. ?? me also dun wish to ask somemore .. scare later she think me very kpo ... anyway.. take care ... my listening ears will always be there for u .. ;) especially for u ... take note ..

haiz..

2005-03-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

sian ... she's attached again .... everytime she's attached ... it just hurts me deeply ... i just cant release the big stone inside me ... is so tough .. gotta control it by not allowing the stone to fall even deeper ... guess these days me gotta utter a lot of rubbish ... or eat lots of junk foods ...

anyone's with me ? having ktv sessions? .. having buffets ... etc ?? maybe i need to do something to destress ... going out also can ... me dun wanna to be alone at home !!! ...

haiz ... am i going to have a sleepless night today ? maybe i am going to break down soon .... just maybe .... bloggie .... u understand what i am talking anot ... give me an answer bah .... will u accompany me to sing ktv ? having buffets ... ?

*Really really wish to have someone by my side right now ... *

Questions with No Answers ..

2005-03-17T15:50:00.000+08:00

yah ... i am still wearing the ring .... the other ring that meant for her still inside my drawer ... maybe still cant forget her ... or maybe i feel that i still care for her inside my heart ... and the love amulet that she gave to me .. still inside my wallet ... as always ...

this chapter has been entangled me for so long ... really hope it ends real soon .. and how about next chapter? when it gotta start?

Heyz Boggie ..

2005-03-10T11:23:00.000+08:00

it has been a week since my last blog ... been going out this few days ... playing pool ... netball .. shopping etc .... this's more like the lifestyle i wanna it to be ... carefree and happy ... ;) life is short though ...

erm... i forget to pass grace's bday present to her ... it has been a week ... haha ... how forgetful i am .. -.- .. lets hope she does read my blog .. and remind me to pass the present to her one of these few days ... just in case me forget again ...

*thinking hard what to blog* ... lolz... really dunno what to blog now ... guess this one week nothing special incidents happen though ...

just hope everyday i will be busy throughout whole day ... busy going out with friends .. busy playing ... busy studying and working .... so that i wun have the free times to think abt anything .... yah... i will be exhausted ... very exhausted ... do you know what i am thinking , bloggiez ...??? ...

Argh..

2005-03-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

today my temper not very good ... haiz ... the sight of my brother just annoys me ... results so badly done ... still got the mood to chat on phone whole day long ... tel him to get a job ... so that can give my mum some allowances ... to ease her burden ... but things turn out to be another way round ... he keeps going out everyday .... go watch movie la... blah blah blah.... spending every single cents he has .... wtf ...

i saw his msn nick just now by accident ... he hope to get into the course he appeal to ... then i really hope he cant get in ... and somemore the unknown course he appeals to ... dun think has any good prospect ... with his kinda of lousy grades ... if still can get in .. i dunno what else to say ....

maybe i'm just too tired .... actually there's some things that doesnt concern me .. and i dun think i have to ask or think so much abt it ... but i did ... guess i'm too nosy .. i already had lots of problem troubling me .... i should learn not to pry into the affairs of others ... why make my life so miserable ... i miss the old me ... i should be happy ...

i'm so full rite now ... been eating a lot of junk foods just now ... i'm always like this ... when i'm troubled or unhappy .... i just bottled it inside me .... and vent it out by eating and drinking till i cannot take it anymore ... ;) ... oh man .. i think i need to wait for a while more .. *to digest* ... b4 i sleep ...

tomolo will be a better day ... dun feel like blogging le ... lights off ....

2005-03-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

back from work ... so tired ... my brother's Os level result is out ... badly done ... what else can i say? he deserves it ... he never tried his best ... only got himself to blame ... haiz.. the whole family is worried for him .. and he himself dun even give a damn ... E8 grade for english and humanities ... chinese and arts grade C ... maths and science grade B ... L1R4 get 27 .... wtf .... 27 points ... plus grade E for english ... how to get into poly courses .... he went to rp ... sp .. nyp .. and np ... trying to appeal for courses ... rp, sp and nyp reject him straight away .. knowing he got a grade E for english ... and yet my brother complains to me .. telling me that their attitude sucks la... blah blah blah ... diaoz ... please lor... now he is getting this kinda of result ...wat kinda of attitude he wanna other ppl to give him ? ...

but np has a few new courses available for him to be appeal to ... but hor .. me also dunno what kinda of courses are those .... haiz.. frankly speaking ... i hope my brother cant enter into those poly courses ... gotta teach him some lessons ... suan le.. me cant be bother also ... dun listen to my parents la.. dun study hard la.. he deserves it ...

today is grace's birthday ... happy birthday to u ... ;) ... yawnz.. i am tired ... lights off ...

Sentosa ~~

2005-02-28T10:16:00.000+08:00

On sat ... me and yongsing went to melyvn house straight after work ... oh man .. damn tired ... since junhui and waileong was already there ... then we made our way to clementi interchange .. took bus to his house and reached there ard 12.15 am ... lolz.. waiting for manchester utd match to start .... then in the end .... no one watching the game ... yongsing me and junhui playing ps2 in melyvn's room ... waileong sleeping in the living room ... then melyvn was sleeping beside us ... hahaha .. all of us were tired .... then left his house ard 3am ...

erm... headache ... meeting yongsing below our blk 8.30am that day... hahaha ... gotta take a bus to sentosa yesterday with yongsing .. shuping .. grace .. andy and their jjc friends .... quite enjoyable though ... sort of my secondary school prefects outing .... the weather is a bit hazey ... not much of sunlight .... hahaha ... and it rains in the late evening ... then we decide to leave the place ... bathe .. change ... then take bus to bukit timah hawker center near np there to have our dinner ... meeting mery and her bf ....

mery very pretty man .... no wonder junhui they all say she is a good catch .... but hard to catch .. lolz .. heard of her name since they enter into jjc .... she's a indonesian chinese ... guess she's the type of girl that every guy will after for her .... guys will drool for her ... lolz... oops.. hahaha...

then played pool at mambo till 11pm plus ... supper at nearby malay stall ... lolz .. then finally took a cab home with yongsing

WooHoo~

2005-02-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

yesh ... i played basketball today again ... hahaha ... feeling damn great .. ever since secondary school days .. almost everyday played basketball after school in the afternoon ... under the hot and bright sun ... lolz ...

team up with some of the china guys ... oh damn .. dunno what to say .. damn selfish .... no sportmanship at all ... not really know how to play .. and give us tat kinda of "hao lian" look ... wtf ... really cannot cooperate with them ... scratch me ... and injured my eyes .. argh ... cant even play properly ... qi si wo le ....

erm.. today so special ... jinhong came to meet us along with another 3 girls ... hahaha ... and one of the girl tat i know ... tat time went ktv with rongping de .. yuan lai is jinhong's classmate ... hahaha ... she recognised us too ... then when jinhong make the ball into the basketball ... they all cheer for him ... oh man ... bth .... lolz ..

feeling so tired now .... tats the way ... erm.. tml have to wake up early in the morning to travel from jurong east to pasir ris ... hahaa .... must reach there by 8.30am ... oh man .. who need morning call ? lolz... and hor.. looks like the camp thing cfm at least need 5 hrs .... waste my time though ... haiz ...

I Love The Sun ~~~

2005-02-22T00:07:00.000+08:00

i went for basketball today ... muhahaha ... under the big , hot sun ... woohoo~~ i havent recover from my sunburn a few days ago ... but i dun care ... played with junhui and yongsing ard noon time ... only the 3 of us at the basketball court ... guess we are the crazy ones ard ....

then end our basketball ard 3.30 pm ... take a bath ... change .... and then yongsing and i make our way to woodlands causeway point .. for junhui ... guess he meet up with another person .. dunno whether is a girl or a guy ... to bugis ... hahaha.. he so ke lian ... need to get back to camp by this evening .... guess we have to wait till this weekend to see him again ...

today time flies very fast .... tml going to work again ... but me getting my pay soon ... next week .. yeah ~~ ... finally ... look forwards for next monday or tuesday ... erm ... o yah ... i need to call the national service officer tml ... need him to help me change my date from this saturday to this thursday ... i wanna accompany desmond and yongming to camp .... hahaha.. me dun wanna go alone .. but a bit sian ... i waste my one day off ... cannot stay at home and rot ... then have to travel so far to camp site ... argh...

my sunburned shoulder is hurting me though ... especially when i carry my bag ... i deserve it la... cannot blame ... lolz.. erm ... this kinda of weather hor... go beach play with water ... swimming or water sports .. sure damn shiok ... but too bad .. i dunno how to swim ... muhahahaha...

* Ni Dong Wo Zai Xiang Ni Ma ... ? *

SunBurn ... And Even More Tired ..~~~

2005-02-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

oh man ... kana sunburn ... my nose .. and my arms ... so red ... like cooked meat .. hahaha .... playing soccer today at yishun there .. under the hot sun ... very hot indeed .. so tired ... still have to work somemore ... haiz .... feel very sleepy .... me called the boss ask him whether can i take off tml .. he says no ... what the hell ... yongsing taking 3 days off this week ( monday , saturday and sunday ) ... and how abt me ? ... i took a day off on tues ... and my next off day will be next sat ... coz i need to go camp report ... wah lau ... du lan lor ...

other than this ... grace still havent buy ys present ... oh man ... she told me today she will go orchard and get the present ... i sms her in the evening ... she told me tat she not going to buy ... wanna me to go get it and select another present instead ... -_- ... argh ... i mean since she is already there ... then y me have to go over to buy tml .. i need to work wan lo ... aiyah.. dunno la... dun feel like talking abt this ...

lastly junhui sms me in the evening .. asking me to have dinner together ... but me working mah.. so i reply back to ask him to have supper instead .... me called him a couple of times after work ... no answer from his hp ... his house phone engaged .. the moment i was abt to reach jurong east station .... he sms me back .. asking me how ?!!! ... argh... cant even bothered to call me back .. suan le .. me might as well cook mee when i reach home ....

dunno what to say ... dun feel like doing anything ... maybe i'm moody .. maybe i'm not ... i just dun care ...

* I Need Some Rest ... Give Me A Break ... *

Tired ~~

2005-02-19T00:59:00.000+08:00

heyz blog ... is time to blog ~~~ ... lolz... been to sch in the morning ... then meet grace at city hall control station ... we gotta shop for ys's bday present ... now i realise .... is so hard to get guy a present with a certain budget ... if just buy a t-shirt or shorts .. like too plain ... hai.. so troublesome .. hahaha ..

shouldnt have go to suntec there ... so expensive ... shirts at b.i.r.d or royal sporting house ... cost at least 40 bucks ... oh man ... really have no idea what to buy for him ... maybe watch , wallet or bag ? but is over our budget .... so bo bian ... in the end ... meet shuping and kayi at far east plaza .. assuming orchard there should have the present we are looking for ... so we have few items in mind ... but since the present is being shared among me , grace , shuping and wee har .. then need everyone's consent ... coz some of the items quite ex ... ard 85 bucks ... then everyone will have to afford at least 20 bucks ... to share one item .. shuping says too expensive le ... so does wee har .. then end up not buying anything for ys today ... hahaha ...

yah.. maybe 20 bucks is too much for a shared present to a friend .. looks like giving presents to beloved one compare to friends ... can say it all ... sometimes one person willingly to buy a $200 ++ present to his/her beloved gf/bf ... but to friend ... guess there's no need to invest so much .. lolz... and sometimes ... some ppl dun even want to spend so much on either friends or beloved ones ... thought counts bah ... then do the price of the present represents the value of the friendship or relationship ?? ... erm ... this i really not sure .... diff ppl diff view ... obviously ... i dun think anyone will mind or reject bday present which worth tat much ....

thats all for today .. yawnz.. is getting late .... tml still have to wake up early .. travel to yishun again ... joining weisheng they all for soccer in the morning ... then evening still need to travel to woodlands to work .. hahaha... another busy and tiring day... haiz.. how i wish i can have another activity for tml .... hahaha ... guess only one person know what i am talking abt ... sh ...

* Lights Off *

What am i thinking ....??

2005-02-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

troubled by something lately ... cant really see the direction ahead of me ... and me have no choice but to remain at the same position ... dun dare to rush things ... scare i might mess up everything in the end ... been busy with work and schools .... travelling from jurong east .. to yio chu kang .. then to woodlands .. and lastly home sweet home back to jurong east again ... oh man .. i waste so much time on travelling ... veri tiring also ...

having a off day today is a blessing to me ... reach home from school ard noon ... meet yongsing for lunch .. and hor.. i saw a lot of ppl queueing up at the singaporepools outlet ... hahaha ... junhui sms me .... asking me to share buying to-to together for this thursday ... 10 million leh.. hahaha... scaly the luck is on my side leh.. u nv know.. ;) ... slept the whole afternoon ... woke up during dinner time ... tats how i spend my off day ... haiz ... how "interesting" ... actually plan to go nus to play netball de ... but hor.. andy dun wanna go ... ys working ... then no one accompany me ... so suan le lor.. if me going alone .. like a bit weird instead ...

did a crazy thing on v-day .... dunno what am i doing sia .. think i dun need to give much details on tat ... lolz.. then been day-dreaming about it while working ... diao ... and hor.. i lost my house key ... damn .. second time le .. this time i really have no idea where and how i lost it ... hahaha ..
my mum was furious .... but nothing much i can do .. i cant find the key within me ... nor my bag ... tomolo will be a better day bah .. i guess ...

V-Day..

2005-02-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

14th of Feb ... hate this date when i am single ... love it when i am attached ... hahaha ... cannot blame ... when i am single .. then i dun wanna get to anywhere else .. expect staying at home ... prevent me to envy other couples holding hands walking down the streets ... so loving ... haiz.. tats made me sad ...

i decided to put on the ring ... ---> the rings i bought for my ex and myself ... she didnt accept it tat time ... but it still remains here with me .... haiz... tat time i have been wearing the ring which was a couple rings also ... one for annabelle .. one for me ... but i lost it ... i regretted ... argh .... this time me gotta be careful with the ring ...

looks like i gotta be single for this year v-day ... haiz... really very sian ... but nothing much i can do also ... slowly slowly find mah ... anyway .. me going to national service soon le bah ... hope new year ... better luck coming my way ... ;) ...

2005-02-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

woohoo ... i cut and dye my hair .... lolz.. so-so la... today ghim xia sms me out of the sudden ... asking me to play basketball ... then she came down from school to play bball with me and weixiong ... hahaa.. so glad can play basketball again .. guess i am a bit rusty liao ... ;) and old too ...

then after playing .... ate our dinner together .... chit chat lor ... but still secondary school days are still the best afterall .... haiz .... tml gotta work again .. oh man ... lolz..

no title ...

2005-02-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to brother ... hahaha.. is on 31th of jan .... hope she enjoy herself ... hor hor ... she's 20 liao ... hahaha .. oops... ;) So fast ... Feb liao ... wonder how am i going to celebrate this year v-day ... haha.. looks like me going to be alone on that day .. or me working bah ....

chatted with grace yesterday ... although i feel that she's quite blur most of the times ... but she aint indecisive for something that she dun wanna to be involved ... this few days nothing much happen lor .. as usual ... studying ... working ... what else then ? hahaha .... o yah ... know this girl named destine from work ... what a unique name she has ... sound like justin ... hahaha .. me and ys get her age wrong ... she aint 20 plus plus ... she even younger than us ... only 18 ... oh man ... coz she's been working like full time ... working 6 days a week ... starting from 1 pm to 10 pm ... tats y we tot she has finish ur studies ....

received a letter from ns few days ago .. wanna me to report to paris ris camp ... and bring along some stuffs ... like p.e. attire ... etc ... sian ... yuan lai all pes A will either be going this camp or another camp for diver ... maybe going to have my hair cut and dye it tml ... with ys ... havent cfm yet ... c how lor...

* Truly Madly Deeply .... *

Bad Day ...

2005-01-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

today my first day handling the counter all by myself... oh man ... i hate vegetables and fruits now ... lolz ... ermm.. for examples ... got a lot of kinda of apples ... fuji apples from china ... fuji apples from usa ... royal gala apples .... apple granny smith ...fuji apples gold/red .... omg ... and their bar codes are 024094 ... 020629 ... 028350 ... 022919 ... 077794 respectively ... remember these codes not much a problem .. just tat ... how to diff these apples ... hahaha... damn ... all apples look the same to me lor.. all red ... and round .. hahaha... -_- ... oranges also like this ... got mandarin honey ... persimman korea ... sunkist naval usa 5 .. sunkist naval 1 .... hahaha.. HEADACHE .....

made a lot of mistakes today .. customer gave me card to make the payment ... then dunno how and why the card disappear out of the sudden ... hahaha... diao... then in the end .. the customer also helped me to find her card ... yuan lai .. the card dropped from my hands .... onto the floor .. lolz... ppl buy baby yam ... i key in mini sweet potato ... hahaha... sian ... sometimes i find myself a joker sia...

but those aunties over there very good ... and helpful too ... at least they willingly to teach and guide those newbie along ... slowly and clearly ... then lastly we had to match the account balance and the sales balance .... and my sales balance still lack of $3.15 ... lolz... wtf... the account balance for cash payment .. is ard $1020 ... me charge ppl $1028 .. then net payment short of $11 bucks ... lolz.. dunno what am i doing sia.. lolz... lets hope i wun be so careless next time ;) ....
god bless me ... hahaha...

the past few days..

2005-01-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. gotta blog today.. someone complaining .... erm... where should i start with? lolz... a lot of things to blog though ..

got myself a job ... cashier at cold storage in causeway point .... not bad la.. the pay so-so too .. learn a lot of things... like how to diff all kinds of vegetables etc ... so hard sia... all looks so alike .. hahaha... like beansprouts ... some got head .... some got head and tail ... some without head and tail ... haha.. and those stupid bar code we need to remember for some items ... omg... gotta memorise all of them ... gotta record those code down ... if not .. hor hor... lolz..

then went for overnite cycling after work with shuping , grace , yingxian , yongsing and their nus netball friends ... btw.. i only know these few .. hahaha.. then cycled from ecp .. to bedok ... then to hougang ... yck ... back to novena ... geylang and finally back to ecp again.. we setted off at 11pm ... reached ecp at ard 7am ... hahaha.. first time cycled for so long... and so many uphills in yck area ... argh... really can die man ... halfway... leg got cramp a bit.. but heck la.. just wanna finish the cycling thing... my butt and hands also veri pain .. lolz.. quite tired also ... in the end ... me yongsing and eva took cab home from there... coz tat afternoon we need to work again ... lolz...

today off day for me ... no work .. so decided to go out and play... then went je with yongsing , junhui, waileong for lunch ... actually wanna watch my brother .. but there's only 2 time slots ... 1.15 pm .. and 9.15 pm ..-_- ... we already missed the first time slot ... and waileong need to report to camp by 10pm ... so bo bian .. cant watch liao ... waited for melyvn to reach je ... went to play pool for one hr ... then go suntec ... walk walk ... without waileong and melyvn ... walked till evening time ... we took cab from there to taman jurong market to eat ... ordered those usual dishes ... lolz... had a feast among ourselves .... back home ard 9pm ...

gotta work tml again .... quite glad i will be busy almost everyday ... at least wun have the free time to think of other stuffs ...

*Time is healing everything rite now ..... *

argh... not again ...

2005-01-19T01:08:00.000+08:00

today went for the netball session with yongsing and kuan wen ... hahaha.. the last netball session for grace le ... haiz.. looks like today ying xian is annoyed .... sometimes i rather dun go then to see her this way .... but grace fell down while playing with us ... dunno is me or shuping ... haiz .. a bit gulity though ...

then after the whole netball session ended .... we had our dinner behind the nus campus ... not sure actually where it located ... but always very crowded over there ... finish eating ... we planned to give yong sing chance to accompany grace as grace do not know how to get to her hostel ... but grace is annoyed ... just like what ying xian was reacting just now ... haiz.. then all of us accompany her walked to her hostel ... so nice .... like chalet .. but hor.. $1000 per sem leh... so ex ... haiz.. anyway.. dun think me got any chance to stay and study in nus la..

reached home ard 11.30pm liao... then my mum is still awake .... and where's my brother then ? no where to be found ... wtf ... not again ... sometimes i really wanna just give him a tight slap ... my mum called him many times .. and he refused to answer all her calls ... and off the phone somemore ... argh... then ard midnight ... he finally reached home .... then the moment my brother stepped inside the house .. my mum questioned him ... where he go etc ... then he just ignored my mum ... and asked my mum not to ask so much ... i think he is too overboard liao ...
if he really making me du lan .. me gotta teach him some lessons some day .... he better know his limits ...

phew .. heng

2005-01-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

phew .. heng ... luckily i didnt say anything to her .... haha... not going to disclose here ... :P ... c how lor... as time goes by .... not much hope at all ... so that i wun be disappointed ... what meant to be urs .. will be urs .... ;)

monday again..~~

2005-01-17T20:09:00.000+08:00

haiz... overslept today.. lolz.. didnt go to school ... maybe lazy bah .... haha .... meet yong sing ard 12.30 pm .. then go to jurong east mac to have our lunch ... then go to woodlands cold storage for a job interview .... gotta wait for the manager to call us during this few days to cfm ...

after that ... meet melvyn and hong wei to catch a show at orchard ... lolz... watching omen .... not bad though ... another thai show .... but i still prefer shutter ... hahaha.... then reached home ard 7 pm ...

yongsing is happy and sad today ... happy coz tml is tuesday .... hahaha... and sad because tml guess will be the last netball session for grace ... grace's timetable will have night lecture during tuesday ... then no time for netball liao .... he really so ke lian .... but bo bian ... some girls are very hard to catch .... no matter how much efforts u put in .... then me hor... also not sure what i am thinking nowadays ... very indecisive ... anyway going to army less than half a year time ... maybe being single now is a blessing ... dun have to worry so much .... sometimes i really wonder .. how those army guys able to maintain a relationship ? .... is so hard lor... frankly speaking .. no time to accompany girlfriend ... and there's other rivals wooing her while u r inside the camp ... etc ... haha.. even my grandmother always tel me to get a girlfriend after ns service ... she also knows that is hard to maintain this kinda of relationship ... sort of unstable ... both parties gotta put a lot a lot of trust on one another .... 2 years leh... aiyo... how sia .. lolz..
look on the brighter side ... there's also some relationships that can overcome this barrier ... but it aint easy for the girl to do so ...

*Should i get myself involved in a relationship before i go army? i dunno .. i am indecisive *

when he's going to grow up ... ?? when ?

2005-01-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

haiz... stupid brother again .... sometimes i feel that when is he going to grow up .... still behave like a child .... 16 liao lor... this time , he did it again ... ever since after Os level , quit the factory job after 1 month, came back from chalet .... he has been going out almost everyday without fail .... he really treats this home like hotel .... like if he decides to go out .. no one is going to stop him ... the more my parents try to stop him from going out .. the more he wanna get out of here ... and i tot after some scoldings from my mum ... he will guai guai stay at home ... as least for one day .... but he just left the house again ... to orchard ... what a joke ... he says he's going to orchard to find jobs ... lolz.. at this time ???!!!! now already 7.10pm .... how interesting ...

my mum has already warn him that the new year clothings are untouchable now ... wait till chinese new year then wear .... but he wore it yesterday .... haiz... can those scoldings get through his head .... still dare to complain to my mum abt the chalet .... complaining abt my mum did not give him enough money ... he had to fork out his "own money" instead ... rubbish !!!! what he expect then ? wanna mum to pay everything ar? he told my mum that he is going to buy another jeans today ... and wanna my mum to pay him back .... wtf !!! ... all because he spends $150 ( ard this amt) to buy one basketball shoe .... so expensive ... haiz... dunno what to say ... and he says he dun mind jobless for the time being ... till the release of the Os level results ... and maybe till poly starts ...

*headache* .... i hope my mum can be ruthless .... she's spoiling him ... and hope my brother can do some thinkings .... no $$ then dun go out lor... haiz... as if he will think ....

A big Mistake ...

2005-01-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

god damn it ... i hate myself... i made another big mistake ... i tot i already get over her ... so i decided to go search friendster for her pic ... but in the end ... my tears just dropped down ... i cried .. just one look of her pic ... made me recover all those wonderful memories .. just flash everything through my mind ... WHY ~~~~ i really cant forget her .... really cant ... the feelings didnt fade away .... is just that .. i am trying hard to keep myself busy everyday so in order not to think tat much ... but i failed this time ...

feelin moody ... guess tml i will be alrite... i wun going to search for her friendster again... this time .. it really hurts me ... teach me a lesson .... i will going to forget everything ... being a happy-go-lucky type... tml will be a better day ....

maybe everything is changing... just maybe...

2005-01-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday evening went to play basketball with yongsing , ben and jielong ... just the 4 of us .... lolz... at west coast .... near tanglin sec there ... then the moment me woke up this morning ... my body aches everywhere ... hahaha... didnt go sch today... coz lazy bah.. lessons starts at 2pm ... then only lasts for 1 to 2 hrs .. so decided not to go ... and in the end .. met yongsing again ... to play badminton at clementi indoor stadium with grace ... shuping ... and two other girls .... played from 1.30pm .. to 4 pm ... then went kfc rot for a while ... then decide to go rc played pool ... hahaha.. with grace , yongsing and one of grace's friend ... jin ting and another girl ... haha.. cant remember ... then now grace so angry teaming up with me ... hahaha... coz played badminton .. me got collaborate with yongsing and shuping they all ... for just only one game .. plus yongsing keep saying i was collaborating with them all along ... hahaha... ke lian de grace .... keep saying me what kinda of team mate am i ... lolz... ;)

then played till 6.15pm .. take bus 198 to jurong point ... to watch meet the fockers ... oh man .. i watched it b4 le ... but nvm .. watched it again bah... then after the movie .. had our dinner at jurong point kfc ... saw denny , jinhui , zhimao and jane ... haiz... sian 1/2 ... sometimes i really feel so distance from them ... but i dun think they ever tot of asking me out lor... so suan le... maybe our friendship just fading away... not even a hi or bye from them ... only jane smiled at me ... tats all ... anyway i wun be bother anymore la ... i always think if they really ever wanna ask u out ... they will ask u .... dun need me to be the ones who always ask them out instead ...
i mean my msn has their msn address... then they almost online everyday .. and u know what ... from the past 1 to 2 years ... i dun even receive any msn msg from jinhui or denny lor... what does it mean ? i hate to be the one who take the first move everytime ... and i repeat myself again ... if they ever tot of wanna ask me out .. they will msg me ... or sms me ... dun need me to ask them got any outings anot instead ...

i'm taking it very easy ... because friends do go out and in ur life .... as for them .. i do thanks them ... to be with me .... during my secondary sch life .... wonderful memories wun be replaced tat easy ...

NUS ...

2005-01-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

hahaa... met yongsing again after school yesterday .... lolz ... anyway he was going to jurong east to sign up for his posb debit card .... then have our lunch at entertainment ... since i'm free ... yongsing suggested to go to IMM .... just walking ard ... looking ard ... for shoes and slippers ... then suddenly yongsing suggested another place to go ... to NUS ... hahaha... hao bah ... lets go lor... anyway i would be bored if i went home straight after IMM .... also nothing much to do ... bought foods and drinks for weixia ... shu ping ... and grace .... although i dunno shu ping and grace well ... took cab there ... they all below nus central library selling 2nd hand shirts , sport bra ... socks etc .... think trying to make funds for certain events bah... not very sure ... but very crowded ... so happening ...

mentioning abt the food ... lolz... actually bought those food for wx, sp and grace de .... then one of their friends ate the food ... diao..-_- lolz.. because wx was not ard ... she had lecture during that time ... luckily they still saved one curry puff for her ... but hor.. dunno whether wx didnt eat them straight away ... she brought home ... i guess she threw it away bah ... lolz.. ;)

hahaa.... went there liao ... also nothing much to do ... we just sat at one corner ... talked .. waited for 2 hours ? i not very sure .... till evening lor.. then so pai seh ... have to join them for dinner in NUS together ... ying xian ar ... haiz .. me dun even dare to look at her in her eyes ... there's chances for me to get close to her .. but i didnt made good use of it ... or maybe i just dun wan ..
dunno bah... gotta do some thinking ... lolz.. after the dinner ... then went to jurong east entertainment again to play pool with ys , sp and wx .... till 11 pm ... erm ... grace is so cute ... and blur too .. no wonder yong sing likes her ... haha ... as for sp ... i can tell she can be a very good buddy .... after playing .. we went home separately .... reached home ard 11.35 pm ... online for a while to add sp and grace msn ... then went to sleep at 1 am ..

as for today .. wednesday off for me .... no school .. but i staying at home ... doing nothing .. rotting again ... guess that's the life of being single bah.. hahaha... has a lot of free times ...
yongsing also rot at home .. he still has 3 more months to go national service .... i also dunno what is he going to do for this 3 months .... hahaha.... cant possible go out everyday also what ...
guess will be playin badminton with them next week at nus bah.. or clementi .. not yet decide when and where ...

* Rain and shine ... my love for you never dies .... but i hope it does fade away as time goes*

hurt

2005-01-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

back from sch in the afternoon .... ys sms me ... asking me to accompany him to bbdc .... book his advance theory... haiz ... me not yet take basic theory leh... is not i dun wan ... just that so what if i complete my basic and advance theory.. my parents also wun spend $1000 ++ for the practical lessons ... so let it be bah .... how i wish i have the $1000++ now .. at least i can afford the practical myself ... to ease their burden ....

after booking his advance theory ... went to bugis walk walk .... haiz.. bugis .... sad memories .... although my face dun show it ... but my heart hurts .... sometimes is so hard to face the true me .... bought one jeans .. one shirt today ... hm.. spend ard $80 liao ... i have a lot of things wanna buy... hahaha.... me wanna dye and cut my hair ...... buy new bag .... buy a few more shirts ... buy renoma underwear ... comfortable hor... dun laugh :P .... hehe.. o yah... also another pair of slippers and shoes .... haiz... all this add up hor.. dunno how much sia... dun wanna think so much ... lolz.. then took mrt back to jurong east .... we decided to go entertainment "k-pooling" ... till 10pm ... tml still got lessons at 10am ... yawnz...

now listening to zhang dong liang's "Hurt" .... "O Baby... Why Would You Hurt Me So Long" ?
meaningful song .... i really really hope someone can enter into my life again... to brighten up my day everyday .... every month ... every year .... just hope ... not a Must .... although everyone can live without bf/gf .... but there's always moments u wish to share ur happinese , ur sadness with him/her and u know there's someone who will always stand by u ... support u ... loving u .... cherish u ....

*There's a question asking this , Who will you choose to save if ur parent and ur gf fell into the water at the same time ? .. my answer to this question is .... i will save my parent first... then back to water .. and die with my gf together .... no regrets although i know i am silly ...*

jokes...

2005-01-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

Jokes ...

A little old lady answered a knock on the door one day, only to be confronted by a well dressed young man carrying a vacuum cleaner. "Good morning," said the young man. "If I could take a couple of minutes of your time I would like to demonstrate the very latest in high powered vacuum cleaners." "Go away!" said the old lady. "I havent got any money!" and she proceeded to close the door. Quick as a flash the young man wedged his foot in the door and pushed it wide open. "Don't be to hasty!" he said, "Not until you have at least seen my demonstration." And with that, he emptied a bucket of Horse shit onto her hallway carpet. "If this vacuum cleaner does not remove all trace of this Horse shit from your carpet Madam, I will personally eat the remainder." "Well," she said, "I hope you've got a good appetite, because the electricity was cut off this morning."

Jokes ...

A man approached a very beautiful woman in a large supermarket and asked, "You know, I've lost my wife here in the supermarket. Can you talk to me for a couple of minutes?" "Why?" she asks. "Because every time I talk to a beautiful woman, my wife appears out of nowhere."

Jokes ...

A couple went on vacation to a fishing resort near a national park. The husband liked to fish at the crack of dawn; the wife preferred to read. One morning the husband returned after several hours of fishing and decided to take a short nap. The wife decided to take the boat out. She was not familiar with the lake. She rowed out, anchored the boat, and started reading her book. Along comes the park ranger in his boat, pulls up alongside and says, "Good morning, Ma'am. What are you doing?" "Reading my book," she replies as she thinks to herself, 'Is this guy blind, or what?' "You're in a no-fishing area," he informs her. "But, Officer, I'm not fishing. Can't you see that?" "But you have all this equipment, Ma'am. I'll have to take you in and charge you." "If you do that I will charge you with rape," snaps the irate woman. "I didn't even touch you," grouses the ranger. "Yes, that's true....but you have all the equipment."

Jokes ...

A bus stops and two Italian men get on. They sit down and engage in an animated conversation. The lady sitting behind them ignores them at first, but her attention is galvanized when she hears one of the men say the following: "Emma come first. Den I come. Den two asses come together. I come once-a-more. Two asses, they come together again. I come again and pee twice. Then I come one lasta time." "You foul-mouthed swine, " retorted the lady indignantly. "In this country we don't talk about our sex lives in public!" "Hey, coola down lady," said the man. "Who talkin' about a sexa? I'm a justa tellin' my frienda how to spella 'Mississippi'."

raining day ....

2004-12-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

raining heavily in the afternoon again .... maybe the god is shedding his tears for those people who had lost their lives .... What a massive disaster turned out to be a few days ago .... magntitude 9.0 earthquake hit indonesian island of sumatra .. unleashing waves that flooded costal towns from Thailand to Sri lanka .. caused waves as high as 10 metres to strike tourist resorts near the coastline area ... houses and resorts destroyed within a second .. boats capsized ... more than hundred thousands of people suffered from this massive disaster ... lucks decides on who lives and dies.. i'm not sure abt the actual number of lives have been claimed during the disaster ... but the numbers keep increasing everyday .... and still lots of people not yet been found .... the feeling's poignant everytime images of dead bodies lining the coastline or any kins of victims wailing were put up on papers .... its very painful for the survivors and kins of dead victims .... Let's pray for those still missing , hope miracles will happen ... lets treasure those ard you ... be it your family members ... relatives ... friends .. teachers etc .. we are very fortunate lot as compare to those neighbouring countries... lets hope relief aids reaches them asap ....

hope thats no more wars between countries ... no more terrorism ... or any massive disaster by mother nature ....

*life is so fragile .... treasure it *

Another Day ~~

2004-12-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

watched kong fu hustle with brother sr today.... gotta wait for her classes to end ...if not she aint available... ;) overall , the movie not bad ... as usual ... fun and laugher fills the whole place ... but the movie a bit bloody though ... o yah .. hope that u're not going to treat me next time ... hahaha ... dun need to be so ke qi la.. me pay can liao ... if not .. me not going out with u anymore le.. ;) thats a threat from me ... remember that carefully.. hahaha...

haiz... aint eat much this few days.... me can even forget to have my lunch and dinner .... haha.. what am i doing? but i do have gastric pain on sunday... ;) .. time flies ... less than a week to year 2005 ... can u believe it ? let's hope year 2005 will be a better year for me ....

ys pm me ... ask me out tml evening to go for netball session at nus ... dunno wanna go anot ... haiz... ying xian !!!! lolz... a ger who seems so perfect to me ... must be hard to grab .. so near yet so far ... -_- .... still considering .... anyway gotta reply ys the answer by tml 3pm ... and also gotta wait for andy's sms ... to cfm the place and time to play billard tml ... hope everyday will be a busy day for me .. so me wun have the time to think so much ....

on my way home today ... i took out the heart shaped 10 dollars note .... it will always remain there .... unless ... me can unload the troubles inside me ... i hope she understands ..... the way i cherish the 10 dollars note ... is equivalent to how much i cherish her in my heart ~

*back on my feet again ... asking myself a question , " Will she come back to me again ? " ... am i silly? i think i am ... *

Sad Christmas...

2004-12-24T20:56:00.000+08:00

25th of december ... Christmas Day .... i m alone at home this year .... although i always wish to have someone to celebrate this day with me ... now dun have any mood to go anywhere and do anything ....

quarrelled with my brother when he was back from work ... just because he wore my jeans and shirt ... i was angry because he didnt ask for my permission... there is more than enough shirts of his in the wardrobe ... and do u know what lame excuses he gave me ... he said he just took one of the shirts inside by accident coz he havent fully wake up by then ... wtf !!! and i found out one of my orange shirt went missing... it was a present by my ex-gf ... am i overreacted? the most ironical thing is that he said me scolded him without any reasons ... stupid sia... he said the rest of his shirts too small for him liao.. so have to wear mine ... tmd... another lame excuse .... he 16 years old liao leh... kaoz... and he complained to mum to give him money to buy shirts la... cb... fuck lor....
other than working days that he have to wake up early in the morning .... i think 3 or 4 working days in a week ... the rest of the days i cant even see his face early in the morning when i wake up at 9am .. 10am ... got $$ to go out and play... spend $$ on gf .. whatever shit .. i dun care.... why dun go and buy a shirt for urself ... wun cost much lor..

he cfm complaining to someone now.. stupid sia.. as if not his fault like this ... i scolded him for his wrong doings now ... he talked back saying last time here ... last time there... fuck sia... 16 years old liao cannot think ar... he really more stubborn than me ... i know he wear my shirts a lot of times without my permission liao... me just close one eye only .... and think he can get away with it so easily ... feeling like slapping him man ... argh.... the more he trying to explain himself ... the more i wanna punch him on the face.... telling him that do u know you are talking nonsenses ... o yah.. he said those shirts of yours ... u didnt wear them mah.. so i wear lor...
!!!!! argh... more angry...

u all can say i am a lousy brother ... but i already reminded him to stay out of my stuffs ... UNLESS he asks me for the permission ..... i just dun like ppl to touch and mess up my stuffs .. simple as that ... lousy ... lousy lor.. do i care? i have my own ways of doing things ... and u dun like it.... then too bad ... shut your mouth .. otherwise jolly well ask for my permission dude.... i dun enjoy quarrelling .. waste my energy...

Haiz .... Why This Happen ? ....

2004-12-22T21:11:00.000+08:00

Eshadi my friend ....
Newspaper Article Yesterday ....

NO LICENCE: The father of Mr Muhammad Nor Eshadi (left) did not know his son was riding a motorcycle as the latter did not own a licence yet. He was shocked when he received news about his son's bike (below) colliding with a car at the junction of Corporation Road and Corporation drive.

That evening, at 8.25pm, 19-year-old Muhammad Nor Eshadi Zainol Abidin's motorcycle collided with a car at the junction of Corporation Road and Corporation Drive.
He died from serious head injuries later. His passenger, a 16-year-old girl, suffered abrasions to her face and legs.

Mr Zainol Abidin, the father of Mr Muhammad Nor Eshadi, did not even know his son was riding a motorcycle. He had not got his licence yet.
'When the police called me at 10.20pm, I was very, very shocked. I did not believe it,' the 44-year-old said.

He rushed to the National University Hospital and waited almost five hours while his son was in intensive care. When Mr Zainol finally saw his son at about 3.30am, the teenager was unconscious.

'He was in a very bad shape. He could not breathe; he kept coughing and vomiting blood. His temperature was dropping and he was getting cold,' he said.

He died at about 4am.

Mr Zainol had been wanting to warn his son about the danger of motorcycles after his friend's son died slightly more than a week ago in a motorcycle crash.

'Actually, all I wanted to say was: 'Take care.' '

According to Mr Zainol, who lost his job four years ago, his son had been working at fast food restaurants since he was 13 to put himself through his N levels and later an electronics course in the Institute of Technical Education.

After he graduated, he worked nights as a pump attendant to save money for further studies.

He had a 17-year-old sister and two brothers, aged six and nine.

In the corridor of Mr Zainol's second-floor flat, a barber's chair and mirror stand unused.

'Without a stable income, I could never give him what he wanted, so I had plans to set up a barber shop at home with him so we could start a partnership together,' he said.

Anyone with information about any of the accidents can contact the police on 1800-547-1818.

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National Service Medical Checkup ...

2004-12-21T22:00:00.000+08:00

yawnz... had to wake up so early in the morning to get prepared to go for medical checkup at cmpb .... so fast ... NS ... haiz... lolz... can i dun go ? i guess not ... hehe.... all weisheng's fault la.... checkup at 10am leh.. in the end , he was having breakfast at yishun there ard 9.30am -_- .... still wanna take mrt to redhill .... then take cab in ... bth him la... me dun wanna to be late ... so i went there alone ... hahahaha ...

quite crowded at the waiting area .... then moved from stations to stations .... like Nafa tests ... sian ... dun like checkups ... haaha ... coz i scare injections and dental ... -_- maybe since primary school times ... keep kana scolded by the dentist abt my teeth .... from tat time onwards ... hate them to core .. lolz.. got hearing tests, urine tests , blood tests , x-rays, dental area, eye tests, height and weight ... check blood pressure etc... and had to do some subject questions ..

went into the ECG room ..( me also dun understand what does ECG means ) to measure our heart beat rate .. weisheng's heartbeat rate is 62/min .. mine 105/min ... diao... how come my heart jump so fast ... lolz.. and btw hor.. what is the normal heartbeat rate for people ar? lolz... dunno is he or me having abnormal heartbeat rating .. hahaha.. at the last station .... had to visit one of the doc over there if ur queue no. is being called ... the moment i sat down ... he asked me this question , "are you a gay?" i stunned for a second ....lolz.. caught by surprise why he suddenly asked this .. lolz.. then the next thing the doctor requested me to do ... erm... dun think u all wanan know la.. hahaha.. for me to know.. for u all to find out ... sh... =X ... got into PES A ... which means all BMT trainings can take ... hahaha..

weisheng's blood got problem la... hearing also got problem la .. heartbeat rate so slow... omg... u ok anot? lolz... no wonder everytimes call ur name .. u only heard it once or twice.. hahaha.. oops.. =X the medical checkup tooks 6 hrs ... including 1 hr of lunch break ... BMT soon ... within a year? hahaha.. i starting to love singapore .... me dun wanna go TEKONG ... lolz...

*Dreaming of you, Thinking of you, Craving for you, but where are you?*

No Festival Mood ...

2004-12-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

haiz.. life been so boring nowadays .... gotta find a part time job to do .. to earn some $$ ... lolz.. today raining again ... what a cool weather to sleep .. ;) .... finally me decided to step my feet out of the house ... by asking sr to pei me play pool at jurong east entertainment this evening.... playing from 5 pm++ to 6pm++ ... then had our dinner at KFC over there lor.. ate the buddy meal .. hahha ... saw patrick from jyss ... still the same ... aint change much while queueing up ...

then out of the sudden .. i saw joyce .... it has been almost 1 yr plus ago since i last saw her ... she also didnt change much .. the only changes are the friends she is with now .. no longer weiling , jinhui and "her" le .... dun think she saw me though ... luckily she didnt ... i remembered last year went to her house to revise exams with weiling .. joyce , jinhui and "her" ... she is a clever girl ... think if nothing goes wrong.. she always top the class with her As grade .... but she always moody ... guess she's the only one who know why she behaving this way ....

haiz.. why ? been thinking a lot and recalled a lot of things ever since i saw joyce in jurong east entertainment ... sian1/2 ... i really really should get over it ... and hey brudder sr ... u better intro some nice gals for me hor.. lolz.. remember those "special" conditions .... will be waiting for ur sms everyday ... lolz..

jh just called me ... lolz.. from tekong.. hahhaha.... he complaining abt the training inside the camp..and miss the fun life outside ... complaining abt he is going to have exams ... haahaha...
good luck to u la.. guess u will be back on saturday night ... then lets meet for breakfast on sunday morning .. hahaha...

Christmas is coming again ... haiz.. so sian .. really dun feel like celebrating festival days.. dun have the mood to do so ... and somemore i am single.. frankly speaking ... probably will envy those couples will get the chance to be together to celebrate this Christmas... but me also xi guan le ... all of my ex steads ... only anabelle celebrated Christmas with me... and me really can remembered clearly what happened and what we did on that day on Christmas .. which was like 5 years back ? i guess so .. lolz.. impressive rite. .. haaha ... and once again ... my Christmas wish is ... hope i myself will get a chance to celebrate next year Christmas along with my beloved girlfriend ....

moody towards this coming Christmas Day .... lolz.. rotting at home the whole day. . listless ... no aim .. hahaha... what the heck i am doing ... sian1/2 ... ltr go dream what will my next Christmas Day like ... lolz....

*Relationship hurts ... Don't they ??? ... If so, why people still wanna be in love ??? Maybe love is blind afterall .... *

haiz..why?

2004-12-09T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yawnz... oh man ... i am very very tired .... lolz... been going out almost everyday this week .... feel like sleeping every minute ... hehe .... i dunno how many times i have been singing karaoke .... lolz.. yesterday morning ... met jh for breakfast .... then went wx's house play ps2 ... accompany wx go jp for a while .. coz he need to go to the nokia care center .... went kbox with wx and sr at cck lot 1 and sang till 2 am ... reached home ard 2.30am plus plus ... stayed awake to watch champion league which started at 3.45am ... then me in the end slept at 6am plus plus ... hahaha... BUT jh called me in the morning 9am plus plus .... -_- .. headache sia..
jh going back to NS soon le... erm.. guess another 12 hrs from now .... he gotta report there ard 8 tml morning ... gotta miss him .. lolz... but i think he will get to book out on saturday bah... if nothing goes wrong ...

haiz... i think i been thinking too much lately .... yesterday at cck lot 1 kbox ... i tot i saw "her" ... then i stood up ... went out of the room .. and followed "her" to her room ... in the end .. it wasnt "her" ... damn it .... i still cant forget abt her .... *moody* ...

haiz again ... dunno wat to blog now .... sian1/2 .. maybe now feeling down bah .... take care jh and jeff .... what to do for tml ? ... and tats the question me keep asking myself .... maybe thats why life aint simple ....

*Signature of yours remain deep in my heart and it will never be erase ...* ( This i promise you )

Singapore My Home ...

2004-12-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

Back from Batam yesterday ... a bit disappointed though ... coz not much of scenery to look at ... not much of places to go ... luckily it was just a 2 days 1 night trip .. lolz.. if not .. me going to suffer man ... their living standard damn low ... been travelling around ... cant even see any tall buildings ... no overhead bridges at all .... very very few traffic lights .. the lights are so dim ... quite useless ... no wonder accidents happen so often in tat country ... and hor.. i saw teenagers ard 14-18 years old riding motor-bikes ... passing us ... omg... so young... cant believe my own eyes ... and some even have 3 persons sitting on it ... their life are so carefree .... a bit envy but i still love my home, Singapore ...

went to one of their latest shopping mall , nothing to shop ... but the stuffs over there are considered quite cheap , examples like a can of lemon tea (cold) = 30 cent ... but in our resort room ... one can of cold sprite costed $2.50 if u wish to consume and a normal chicken chop with veggie can cost up to $10.... kaoz... first time i saw a can of cold drink and chicken chop can cost till so much sia... and those ppl over there tried to make almost everything to singapore dollars ... like wanan con tourists sia... lolz... bth... the resort facilities are quite ok ... not really a lot ... but still ok ... the only thing i dislike is .... every facilities will closed at 10pm sharp ... which mean 11pm in singapore time ... so early man ... i tot we should have some activities in the resort during the night .. in the end ... we ended up no choice but to sleep throughtout the night till the next morning ... argh... what a waste ... booked out at 12 noon .. take 1pm ferry from Batam .. and reached Singapore 30-45 mins ltr ... me bought a lot of tibits for my mum .. lolz... she will definitely like it ...

actually planned to go clubbing with jh, ys they all today ... then cant go coz i have to go visit my grandmother ... ;) sorry guys ... and to jh ... u now have only 6 more days to go NS ... lolz... enjoy urself ... what am i going to do for tml ? haiz... everyday seems quite aimless, meaningless for me ... erm... dunno what to blog now... hahaha... still troubled .... maybe one day ... just one day .... i will not be that troubled anymore .... but when will this day comes ... no one knows ...
~awaiting~ ....

*Wishing to have someone to call to every night b4 i sleep .... *

Oversea Trip ..

2004-12-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

Going Batam tml ... lolz... have to wake up early in the morning to pack my stuffs ... and to reach world trade center by 9.30 am ... 2 days 1 night ... dun think i have much stuffs to bring also ... Junhui la... argh.. i didnt know Batam is a place well known for prostitutes ... -_- ... tat time i told weixia we are going to Batam ... and she also told me tat too ... lolz.. cant believe it .. but its all too late to change our mind le... coz we have already bought the tickets ... hahaha... going to Harris Resort together with jh ... sj and joshua ... 4 guys going Batam ... wtf.. lolz... if i am a girl ... i will also be mistaken tat the 4 of us are going to Batam for prostitutes lor.. but i heard jh said Batam had changed a lot ... lolz.. hope so bah..

me only went to malacca once together with my fellow prefects during secondary times ... then tats all .. lolz... somemore not staying overnight over there... just a day visit .. and came back during nightfall ... tats the first and my last to go overseas ... never been to johor ... never been to genting ... haiz.. so sad.. hahaha... and hor.. cruise me also never aboard b4 ... lolz..

went to cmpb to extend my passport with jh today ... then took cab down to world trade center to meet sj and joshua ... coz sj havent buy the tickets yet .... we had our dinner there .... ard 6.30 pm .. then took cab again to nus to meet ys, wx and those netball gals for netball ... quite enjoyable.. hate ys and jh to core man ...1 chat with ying xian ... another 1 touch her ... argh... 2 jerks.. lolz.. and me ... dun even have the guts to chat with her .... -_- but there will always be another tuesday ... ;) .. after playing ... have our supper at nearby shop for cheese prata ... damn nice.. then reached home ard 11pm++

i am now worried .... lolz.. coz wx told me tat joshua's pattern hor... if he wants ... he will really go for prostitutes ... then how? hahaa... for me to stop him ar... hard lor.. although i am curious also ... but i will 100% confident i wun go for this kinda of things wan lor... lets hope joshua, jh and sj can control themselves ... oops... now 12.42am liao... have to wake up at 6 ... lolz.. guess i should stop my blogging now... if not... tml sure cannot wake up ... have to get wx's digital camera in the morning also ... yawnz.. and last thing... hope nothing went wrong for the trip .... god bless us ... amen ... lolz... ;)

*Wishing to have someone to call to every night b4 i sleep*

Tiring Day ~

2004-11-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

What a feast i had yesterday .... planning to go orchard in the early afternoon ... then dunno y ... feel like eating diam sum buffet at world trade center ... lolz.. therefore i , jh and ys alighted there while on our way to orchard ..

after eating .... we took a taxi to taka ... coz our friends playing for the chamber of fears ( a 5 on 5 basketball competition organise by nike) .. go there support .... very crowded ... just in front of ngee ann city... like tat time me played for the adidas streetball challenge ... thinking abt it .. never regret of taking part ... once in a lifetime playing basketball at orchard ... lolz.. then we decided to go hereen buy things .... jh bought a bag worth $75 ... lolz.. so expensive sia... and me and ys each bought a slipper ....

while walking back to ngee ann city .... i saw there's a stall performing some poker cards tricks to sort of impress passer-by for donation ... some sort of charity i guess ... and one "ang mo" standing down there .... aint impress by his performance ... and expose their card tricks in front of the crowd ... and angrily walked away ... what a jerk ... feel like giving that "ang mo" a tight slap ... whats the big deal abt tat ...

congrats for shiang jia their team .. their team won the 5 on 5 basketball challenge ... lolz... they all really very lucky and skilled ... managed to win by one pt .. but a tough game they had ... and they were rewarded with $1000 cash and $2000 nike voucher ... plus 2 nike tops each .. guess they will be on some of the magazines and nike website ... so impressing hor.. lolz.. too bad i too lousy le... ;)

after the whole thing end ... we walked from there .. to plaza singapura ..and out of my surprise ... saw daphne khoo walking pass us .. she's no diff from the tv ... her amazing smile is still there wherever she goes ... hahaha .. then my feets hurt man ... then it aint early anymore .. we took a mrt home ... and manage to reach home by 12 ... so tiring ... and somemore i and jh bought a e33 each at jurong east 7-11 .. he said drink liao... so ltr can sleep faster ... lolz.. and i forgot today morning meet ziwei they all for soccer at jurong west st 91 there .. and sms ziwei yesterday night .. to give me morning call ...

reached there at 9 ... we ended our soccer session at ard 12 noon ... then took our lunch at nearby coffee shop ... then we went back home separately .. didnt sleep yesterday .. and i took a afternoon nap from 2 to 7 just now .. hahaha....

erm... what am i going to do for tml ...??? *Wish to have someone to call to everynight b4 i sleep*

Heart Ache

2004-11-24T18:35:00.000+08:00

Visited my grandmother at Tan Tock Seng Hospital this afternoon ... so afraid to get my feets inside the hospital .... not because of the patients ... just some bad memories ....feeling upset and scared .... i am worried that i will not be able to c my grandmother again ... the god already taken my beloved grandfather away ... haiz... looking at those "needles" insert into my grandmother's hands .... damn ... so painful .. really can c the pain of it when i look at my grandmother's face ... and she still smile at me ... feel like crying at that moment ... if i am not wrong... the joints at the kneecap area aint working anymore ... cannot bend ... cannot move ard ... last night, the operation went smoothly as the doc had already implant a metal joint replacing the old ones to support the kneecap area ... but my grandmother gotta try to stand up .. move ard .. in order not to make the metal joint harden and stiff ... if not ... she will nv be able to move ard like b4 .... but now anything can happen at the moment since she is not discharge yet...

i pray to god ... hope nothing will happen to my grandmother again ... i will visit my grandmother again myself this few days ... hope she will be able to move ard and back to her normal self ... God Bless Her ...

Heart to Heart

2004-11-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

Chatting with Shuorui on msn till 4am yesterday ... lolz... we chatted a lot of things .. like relationship .. future ... etc... haha... but no doubts now we gotta have to plan our future ... of where we are heading to ... so glad i was able to chat with weixia a few days ago on msn .... although it was just a 15-20 mins of chatting ... but ever since we graduated from primary school ... we hardly talked to one another .... maybe tat point of time ... not tat close anymore ... we still lived in same area somemore ... lolz... feel happy for her as her relationship is stable now ... good lucks to her exams .... and dun worry .. time flies ... ur exam will soon be over.... ;)

Acutally planned to go orchard today... all junhui's fault ... so indecisive ... i wanna go shopping.. hahha... so many things i wanan buy .... e.g slippers , shirts , ankle socks ..... gotta visit orchard one of these days ... me also wanna show movie... a lot of ppl say "Incredibles" very nice and funny... looks like if me going to miss this movie.. i will regret... lolz... Good lucks to yongsing and junhui for their As lvl this year ... hope this time they will be able to get flying colors for their exams ...

oh yah .... been to IMM with yongsing and junhui yesterday .... and it rains in the afternoon again... sian 1/2 .. keep raining in the afternoon ... also went there walk walk ... c c ... so we had no chnoice to have our lunch at the food court over there ... so many ppl sia.. so crowded ... i remembered i worked as waiter at the long beach restaurant when i was sec 4 ... IMM is so deserted ... nothing much over there .. therefore no ppl ... but now ... very impressive .... like another jurong east mall apart from jurong east entertainment ...

hm... what can i going to do for tml ? i dunno ... lolz... rotting and slacking i guess ... *wishing to have someone to call to every night*

haiz... unable to post my blog this morning...

2004-11-21T00:04:00.002+08:00

sian 1/2 .... now it's 21th of Nov le... hai... actually wanna post on 20th of Nov ... damn it... all because of my brother.... argh... meddle with the computer stuffs ... just because he was unable to play one online game .. he anyhow download programs and test the game in and out ... restart plenty of times ... in the end ... the computer was corrupted ... affected by some virus ... then me have to waste time and format the computer all over again ... not worth it at all ... all because of one stupid game....

haiz.. lets start with wat happen last year on the 20th of Nov ... a 10 months relationship had ended ... knowing we still loved one another .... tats hurting ... miss her every night ... staring at the telephone and wondering whether to call or not to call her ... so if i do , what am i going to say to her .... life then is very miserable for me ... but one thing i am sure of ... i still love her ... feel like hugging and kissing u ...

i am still using the wallet she bought for me during my birthday ..... the $10 note which she used to fold it into 2 heart shape and gave it to me ... ( in my wallet) ... the blue money pouch ... etc ...
i remembered got a couple of times .... my brother wore those shirts which she bought for me without my permission .... i got fed up .. and scolded him ... i dunno y i reacted this way... all i know those shirts were very important to me ... ever since we broke off ... those shirts tat she bought for me remain untouched by me in the wardrobe ... and the rings i bought for u and i ... was still with me ...

thanks for all the memories u have given to me .... my heart will forever has ur signature on it ...