gotta end of august soon ... everything happens so fast ... this couple of days ... damn crowded at cold storage ... dun have the time to just slack around man ... although now cold storage is not as fun and enjoyable as before ... but still not bad after all ... anyway ... most probably i'll be quitting the job around Oct or Nov ... gotta give myself some time to play and fool around before i go army ...

been thinking a lot of things .... such as "should i sign-on?", " sign-on as ? " , " should i study the course (design) i am really interested in ?" , "how expensive it gotta be ?" , etc .... simply too much for me to note it all down ... guess everyone will reach this stage where you are standing in the middle of the junction .. and there is different direction for you to choose from ... once u choose the wrong direction .. its petty hard for you to go back again ... i dun wish to regret what i did in the past ... by taking IT course ..

really feel like studying after army ... but i know its gotta be very expensive .... or should i stop wasting $$ to study .. the situation now is that theres no way for me to save up tat much of $$ for me myself to study what i really want ... till now ... i'm giving half of my salary to my parents .... and thats really left me with not much ... i believe i go army .. they will still request for spilting half my salary to give them as allowance .... if thats the way ... how long will i have to save the $$ enable to study ....

i'm still 20 ... i know i'm not that young anymore ... but i still wanan to play and do things i feel and wanna to do ... but now ... looks like i'm starting to support my family ... the burden will be heavier as i getting older ... i am tired ... and restless .... and i am complaining why i am broke most of the times ... perhaps i need some fresh air to breathe .... i hope they wun hinder what i wanna pursue ... the happiest thing on earth is do the things you wanna do ... live without regrets ... and thats what life is all about ... dun you think so ? ...

reached home late yesterday ... and called dear ... dunno why these few days really feel like listening to her voice.. feel like taking a look at her ... she told me yesterday that she wun be meeting me on monday ... haiz ... so sad lor .. also dunno wat to say and nothing much i can do too ... guess she must be busy with projects or other things bah ...

had muscle cramp at my leg while playing tensive basketball yesterday ... didnt do enough warm up ... told dear yesterday about this on the conversation... but she didnt say anything ... think she too engrossed to the "superstar" results on the tv ... really do have a lot of things to tell her ... but maybe i dun like ppl to be inattentive or do others things while talking on phone ... giving me the feeling that the other party is not interested at all ...

a few days ago ... told her that i will be informing her the off-days i have every week ... then let her plan and decide which day she wanna meet me bah ... guess thru this way .. will be better for her ... and better for me also ... i wun have to keep asking and pestering her whether which day she will be available..

today and tomorrow i am having my off days ... so glad having off days on friday and saturday ...
but dun think she will be free either ... since she didnt say she wanna meet me ... guess i have to plan something else to keep myself entertain ... today ..erm.. will be meeting weisheng they all again .. for another basketball session in the evening ... as for tomorrow ... erm.. not confirm yet ... but i really hope i can spend the day with her ...

is already 2 months ... this relationship erm... dunno how to describe ... most of the relationship i had in the past ... at this point of time ... should be honey moon period ... guess i not get used to it ... thats all i have to say bah ....

it has been 2 months ... so fast ... just a blink of eye ... but time aint by our side at all .... dear is busy with her school work .... having times with family and friends ... and me will be busy from morning till evening .. and from evening work cold storage till 11pm plus ... and therefore reach home ard midnight ... we only meet up once or twice every week ...

mum called me yesterday ... complaining about my handphone bill for last month usage ... haiz.. dunno what to say also .. i'm in the wrong anyway ... although i didnt get to see the bill myself ... but petty sure its not cheap ... at the same time ... got my pay for attachments around $120 ... my mum has been rushing me to give her $$ .. oh man .. i wanna buy lot of things .. i wanna apply uob visa card ... i wanan go out and have fun .. i wanna go holidays ... and all the above i cant do it without $$ right ? ...

i know by giving mum some $$ will ease her burden .. but who's going to ease my burden? forget it... hahaha... just complaining to the bloggie ...

happy 2nd month dear !!!! hehe .... Muackz .... nothing gotta stop me from loving you ... take care ... and do miss me .. ;)

Its friday morning right now ... such a good and cooling weather outside ... really feel like laze around .... by lazing around will allow me to go back to sleep again ... hahaha ... dun doubt me :P
yesterday has been a tiring day for me ... having a slight fever and a serious sore throat ... dun really feel like talking much ... and in the end boss sms early in the morning to ask me whether can i work for him that evening ... what can i do? looks like they are short of cashier once again ... hahaha .. it has always been that case ...

so terrible ... having sore throat ... still have to force myself to greet the customers... argh ... and although yesterday the crowds still so-so ... but my heart has been wandering around .. thinking about shirley ... erm ... for those who dun know ... she was once one of the supervisors cum cashier ... been taking good care of us .... sometimes even buy things for us to eat etc .... but havent been see-ing her for the past one month plus .... so i tot she just simply taking some annual leaves ... but to my surprise ... she was sacked ... its really shocked me ... that it must be something very very serious ... and one of the senior cashier who is close to her too ... told me that it was due to she made errands to the balancing .. because since she is the supervisor .. she does have the key to do some amendments for every cashier machine ...

eg. the company gives every one of the cashier $5 base .. which means after your balancing .. if anyone of us short within $5 ... the company will cover for it ... and if its over ... you will have to pay the amount ... and if she made errands for every cashier balancing ... and took $4-$5 bucks from every cashier everyday .... ( because the company will cover for it ) .... just imagine ... everyday we will having more than 10 cashiers working , including morning and night shift .. one cashier she took 5 bucks .... 1 day = $50 bucks extra ... 1 week = $250 extra ... haiz .. but the company found out long long time ago .. that she has been doing this ... giving warnings to her .. but she didnt change .. and in the end she was handed over to the police , was fined ... and a bad record is under her name ... guess it will be harder for her to get another job next time ..

tomorrow most probably will be meeting weisheng they all play badminton in the morning ... really dun wish to work that afternoon ... so tiring .. but what can i do ... i really wish to have some private times with dear and friends ... but while talking about it ... it will be quite meaningless to go out with little or no $$ ... that junhui hor.. really wana si qi wo le .. got $$ to bet on soccer .. but wanna delay to pay me back my $$ ... -.- erm ... gotta tried my luck on this weekends as a punter .. hahaha ... hope possible can get some extra income ... ;)

dear: love ya always .. muackz ....

for the past few days ... saturday .. sunday and monday ... been playing hours of mahjong with friends .... hahaha ... dun think i have enough of sleep ... and i fall sick on monday morning .... having fever and sore throat .... so unlucky ... promised to accompany girlfriend watch fireworks at Esplanade ... no matter what ... i forced myself to go instead of resting at home .... it has been one week since i saw her .... i really dun wanna miss any chance to meet up with her ....

damn crowded at city hall .... saw lots of people wearing reds ... like wearing the school uniform ... so united .... thats why i like about singapore .... united we stand ... ;) and there she goes again .. SHE's LATE ... lolz... but me get used to it .... girls take longer time to get prepared anyway ... we went shopping at citilink ... suntec ... then finally settled down at tcc .. near the HMV ... waiting for weisheng they all to meet us ....

then together we headed to Esplanade and reached there ard 6 plus plus but looks like 1/2 of the singapore population is gathering over there.. so crowded ... get a nice place ... waited for 1 to 2 hrs for that fireworks to start .. and when the sky is getting darker ..i know the time is gotta be up ... and soon ... the fireworks started ... hahaha.. first time in my life to view fireworks in such a close distance ... so high up into the dark sky ...really impressive ... took some pics of it too .... really worth the time i have been waiting ... but such wonderful times only lasts ..erm... less than 10 mins i think .. lolz..

and then all of us take our way to the exit ... so hot ... humid.. and CROWDED .... and people pushing here and there .... damn ... it really takes a long time for us to get out of the place ... and we find a place to have our dinner ... and then headed to city hall mrt station ... and some incident happened --> a group of malay guys started fighting ... also not sure whats going on ... but both parties of malay guys keep kicking and punching one another ... making a scene at the control station ... and one of malay guy even tried to use belt to wrack the other parties .... and guess they ran off b4 the police reached there ....

i wonder when is next time i will be having some private time with dear .... is not i dun wanna to go out together with a group of friends ... just that sometimes i hope to have times with just u and me ...