gotta end of august soon ... everything happens so fast ... this couple of days ... damn crowded at cold storage ... dun have the time to just slack around man ... although now cold storage is not as fun and enjoyable as before ... but still not bad after all ... anyway ... most probably i'll be quitting the job around Oct or Nov ... gotta give myself some time to play and fool around before i go army ...

been thinking a lot of things .... such as "should i sign-on?", " sign-on as ? " , " should i study the course (design) i am really interested in ?" , "how expensive it gotta be ?" , etc .... simply too much for me to note it all down ... guess everyone will reach this stage where you are standing in the middle of the junction .. and there is different direction for you to choose from ... once u choose the wrong direction .. its petty hard for you to go back again ... i dun wish to regret what i did in the past ... by taking IT course ..

really feel like studying after army ... but i know its gotta be very expensive .... or should i stop wasting $$ to study .. the situation now is that theres no way for me to save up tat much of $$ for me myself to study what i really want ... till now ... i'm giving half of my salary to my parents .... and thats really left me with not much ... i believe i go army .. they will still request for spilting half my salary to give them as allowance .... if thats the way ... how long will i have to save the $$ enable to study ....

i'm still 20 ... i know i'm not that young anymore ... but i still wanan to play and do things i feel and wanna to do ... but now ... looks like i'm starting to support my family ... the burden will be heavier as i getting older ... i am tired ... and restless .... and i am complaining why i am broke most of the times ... perhaps i need some fresh air to breathe .... i hope they wun hinder what i wanna pursue ... the happiest thing on earth is do the things you wanna do ... live without regrets ... and thats what life is all about ... dun you think so ? ...