raining heavily in the afternoon again .... maybe the god is shedding his tears for those people who had lost their lives .... What a massive disaster turned out to be a few days ago .... magntitude 9.0 earthquake hit indonesian island of sumatra .. unleashing waves that flooded costal towns from Thailand to Sri lanka .. caused waves as high as 10 metres to strike tourist resorts near the coastline area ... houses and resorts destroyed within a second .. boats capsized ... more than hundred thousands of people suffered from this massive disaster ... lucks decides on who lives and dies.. i'm not sure abt the actual number of lives have been claimed during the disaster ... but the numbers keep increasing everyday .... and still lots of people not yet been found .... the feeling's poignant everytime images of dead bodies lining the coastline or any kins of victims wailing were put up on papers .... its very painful for the survivors and kins of dead victims .... Let's pray for those still missing , hope miracles will happen ... lets treasure those ard you ... be it your family members ... relatives ... friends .. teachers etc .. we are very fortunate lot as compare to those neighbouring countries... lets hope relief aids reaches them asap ....

hope thats no more wars between countries ... no more terrorism ... or any massive disaster by mother nature ....

*life is so fragile .... treasure it *

watched kong fu hustle with brother sr today.... gotta wait for her classes to end ...if not she aint available... ;) overall , the movie not bad ... as usual ... fun and laugher fills the whole place ... but the movie a bit bloody though ... o yah .. hope that u're not going to treat me next time ... hahaha ... dun need to be so ke qi la.. me pay can liao ... if not .. me not going out with u anymore le.. ;) thats a threat from me ... remember that carefully.. hahaha...

haiz... aint eat much this few days.... me can even forget to have my lunch and dinner .... haha.. what am i doing? but i do have gastric pain on sunday... ;) .. time flies ... less than a week to year 2005 ... can u believe it ? let's hope year 2005 will be a better year for me ....

ys pm me ... ask me out tml evening to go for netball session at nus ... dunno wanna go anot ... haiz... ying xian !!!! lolz... a ger who seems so perfect to me ... must be hard to grab .. so near yet so far ... -_- .... still considering .... anyway gotta reply ys the answer by tml 3pm ... and also gotta wait for andy's sms ... to cfm the place and time to play billard tml ... hope everyday will be a busy day for me .. so me wun have the time to think so much ....

on my way home today ... i took out the heart shaped 10 dollars note .... it will always remain there .... unless ... me can unload the troubles inside me ... i hope she understands ..... the way i cherish the 10 dollars note ... is equivalent to how much i cherish her in my heart ~

*back on my feet again ... asking myself a question , " Will she come back to me again ? " ... am i silly? i think i am ... *

25th of december ... Christmas Day .... i m alone at home this year .... although i always wish to have someone to celebrate this day with me ... now dun have any mood to go anywhere and do anything ....

quarrelled with my brother when he was back from work ... just because he wore my jeans and shirt ... i was angry because he didnt ask for my permission... there is more than enough shirts of his in the wardrobe ... and do u know what lame excuses he gave me ... he said he just took one of the shirts inside by accident coz he havent fully wake up by then ... wtf !!! and i found out one of my orange shirt went missing... it was a present by my ex-gf ... am i overreacted? the most ironical thing is that he said me scolded him without any reasons ... stupid sia... he said the rest of his shirts too small for him liao.. so have to wear mine ... tmd... another lame excuse .... he 16 years old liao leh... kaoz... and he complained to mum to give him money to buy shirts la... cb... fuck lor....
other than working days that he have to wake up early in the morning .... i think 3 or 4 working days in a week ... the rest of the days i cant even see his face early in the morning when i wake up at 9am .. 10am ... got $$ to go out and play... spend $$ on gf .. whatever shit .. i dun care.... why dun go and buy a shirt for urself ... wun cost much lor..

he cfm complaining to someone now.. stupid sia.. as if not his fault like this ... i scolded him for his wrong doings now ... he talked back saying last time here ... last time there... fuck sia... 16 years old liao cannot think ar... he really more stubborn than me ... i know he wear my shirts a lot of times without my permission liao... me just close one eye only .... and think he can get away with it so easily ... feeling like slapping him man ... argh.... the more he trying to explain himself ... the more i wanna punch him on the face.... telling him that do u know you are talking nonsenses ... o yah.. he said those shirts of yours ... u didnt wear them mah.. so i wear lor...
!!!!! argh... more angry...

u all can say i am a lousy brother ... but i already reminded him to stay out of my stuffs ... UNLESS he asks me for the permission ..... i just dun like ppl to touch and mess up my stuffs .. simple as that ... lousy ... lousy lor.. do i care? i have my own ways of doing things ... and u dun like it.... then too bad ... shut your mouth .. otherwise jolly well ask for my permission dude.... i dun enjoy quarrelling .. waste my energy...

Eshadi my friend ....
Newspaper Article Yesterday ....

NO LICENCE: The father of Mr Muhammad Nor Eshadi (left) did not know his son was riding a motorcycle as the latter did not own a licence yet. He was shocked when he received news about his son's bike (below) colliding with a car at the junction of Corporation Road and Corporation drive.

That evening, at 8.25pm, 19-year-old Muhammad Nor Eshadi Zainol Abidin's motorcycle collided with a car at the junction of Corporation Road and Corporation Drive.
He died from serious head injuries later. His passenger, a 16-year-old girl, suffered abrasions to her face and legs.

Mr Zainol Abidin, the father of Mr Muhammad Nor Eshadi, did not even know his son was riding a motorcycle. He had not got his licence yet.
'When the police called me at 10.20pm, I was very, very shocked. I did not believe it,' the 44-year-old said.

He rushed to the National University Hospital and waited almost five hours while his son was in intensive care. When Mr Zainol finally saw his son at about 3.30am, the teenager was unconscious.

'He was in a very bad shape. He could not breathe; he kept coughing and vomiting blood. His temperature was dropping and he was getting cold,' he said.

He died at about 4am.

Mr Zainol had been wanting to warn his son about the danger of motorcycles after his friend's son died slightly more than a week ago in a motorcycle crash.

'Actually, all I wanted to say was: 'Take care.' '

According to Mr Zainol, who lost his job four years ago, his son had been working at fast food restaurants since he was 13 to put himself through his N levels and later an electronics course in the Institute of Technical Education.

After he graduated, he worked nights as a pump attendant to save money for further studies.

He had a 17-year-old sister and two brothers, aged six and nine.

In the corridor of Mr Zainol's second-floor flat, a barber's chair and mirror stand unused.

'Without a stable income, I could never give him what he wanted, so I had plans to set up a barber shop at home with him so we could start a partnership together,' he said.

Anyone with information about any of the accidents can contact the police on 1800-547-1818.

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yawnz... had to wake up so early in the morning to get prepared to go for medical checkup at cmpb .... so fast ... NS ... haiz... lolz... can i dun go ? i guess not ... hehe.... all weisheng's fault la.... checkup at 10am leh.. in the end , he was having breakfast at yishun there ard 9.30am -_- .... still wanna take mrt to redhill .... then take cab in ... bth him la... me dun wanna to be late ... so i went there alone ... hahahaha ...

quite crowded at the waiting area .... then moved from stations to stations .... like Nafa tests ... sian ... dun like checkups ... haaha ... coz i scare injections and dental ... -_- maybe since primary school times ... keep kana scolded by the dentist abt my teeth .... from tat time onwards ... hate them to core .. lolz.. got hearing tests, urine tests , blood tests , x-rays, dental area, eye tests, height and weight ... check blood pressure etc... and had to do some subject questions ..

went into the ECG room ..( me also dun understand what does ECG means ) to measure our heart beat rate .. weisheng's heartbeat rate is 62/min .. mine 105/min ... diao... how come my heart jump so fast ... lolz.. and btw hor.. what is the normal heartbeat rate for people ar? lolz... dunno is he or me having abnormal heartbeat rating .. hahaha.. at the last station .... had to visit one of the doc over there if ur queue no. is being called ... the moment i sat down ... he asked me this question , "are you a gay?" i stunned for a second ....lolz.. caught by surprise why he suddenly asked this .. lolz.. then the next thing the doctor requested me to do ... erm... dun think u all wanan know la.. hahaha.. for me to know.. for u all to find out ... sh... =X ... got into PES A ... which means all BMT trainings can take ... hahaha..

weisheng's blood got problem la... hearing also got problem la .. heartbeat rate so slow... omg... u ok anot? lolz... no wonder everytimes call ur name .. u only heard it once or twice.. hahaha.. oops.. =X the medical checkup tooks 6 hrs ... including 1 hr of lunch break ... BMT soon ... within a year? hahaha.. i starting to love singapore .... me dun wanna go TEKONG ... lolz...

*Dreaming of you, Thinking of you, Craving for you, but where are you?*

haiz.. life been so boring nowadays .... gotta find a part time job to do .. to earn some $$ ... lolz.. today raining again ... what a cool weather to sleep .. ;) .... finally me decided to step my feet out of the house ... by asking sr to pei me play pool at jurong east entertainment this evening.... playing from 5 pm++ to 6pm++ ... then had our dinner at KFC over there lor.. ate the buddy meal .. hahha ... saw patrick from jyss ... still the same ... aint change much while queueing up ...

then out of the sudden .. i saw joyce .... it has been almost 1 yr plus ago since i last saw her ... she also didnt change much .. the only changes are the friends she is with now .. no longer weiling , jinhui and "her" le .... dun think she saw me though ... luckily she didnt ... i remembered last year went to her house to revise exams with weiling .. joyce , jinhui and "her" ... she is a clever girl ... think if nothing goes wrong.. she always top the class with her As grade .... but she always moody ... guess she's the only one who know why she behaving this way ....

haiz.. why ? been thinking a lot and recalled a lot of things ever since i saw joyce in jurong east entertainment ... sian1/2 ... i really really should get over it ... and hey brudder sr ... u better intro some nice gals for me hor.. lolz.. remember those "special" conditions .... will be waiting for ur sms everyday ... lolz..

jh just called me ... lolz.. from tekong.. hahhaha.... he complaining abt the training inside the camp..and miss the fun life outside ... complaining abt he is going to have exams ... haahaha...
good luck to u la.. guess u will be back on saturday night ... then lets meet for breakfast on sunday morning .. hahaha...

Christmas is coming again ... haiz.. so sian .. really dun feel like celebrating festival days.. dun have the mood to do so ... and somemore i am single.. frankly speaking ... probably will envy those couples will get the chance to be together to celebrate this Christmas... but me also xi guan le ... all of my ex steads ... only anabelle celebrated Christmas with me... and me really can remembered clearly what happened and what we did on that day on Christmas .. which was like 5 years back ? i guess so .. lolz.. impressive rite. .. haaha ... and once again ... my Christmas wish is ... hope i myself will get a chance to celebrate next year Christmas along with my beloved girlfriend ....

moody towards this coming Christmas Day .... lolz.. rotting at home the whole day. . listless ... no aim .. hahaha... what the heck i am doing ... sian1/2 ... ltr go dream what will my next Christmas Day like ... lolz....

*Relationship hurts ... Don't they ??? ... If so, why people still wanna be in love ??? Maybe love is blind afterall .... *

Yawnz... oh man ... i am very very tired .... lolz... been going out almost everyday this week .... feel like sleeping every minute ... hehe .... i dunno how many times i have been singing karaoke .... lolz.. yesterday morning ... met jh for breakfast .... then went wx's house play ps2 ... accompany wx go jp for a while .. coz he need to go to the nokia care center .... went kbox with wx and sr at cck lot 1 and sang till 2 am ... reached home ard 2.30am plus plus ... stayed awake to watch champion league which started at 3.45am ... then me in the end slept at 6am plus plus ... hahaha... BUT jh called me in the morning 9am plus plus .... -_- .. headache sia..
jh going back to NS soon le... erm.. guess another 12 hrs from now .... he gotta report there ard 8 tml morning ... gotta miss him .. lolz... but i think he will get to book out on saturday bah... if nothing goes wrong ...

haiz... i think i been thinking too much lately .... yesterday at cck lot 1 kbox ... i tot i saw "her" ... then i stood up ... went out of the room .. and followed "her" to her room ... in the end .. it wasnt "her" ... damn it .... i still cant forget abt her .... *moody* ...

haiz again ... dunno wat to blog now .... sian1/2 .. maybe now feeling down bah .... take care jh and jeff .... what to do for tml ? ... and tats the question me keep asking myself .... maybe thats why life aint simple ....

*Signature of yours remain deep in my heart and it will never be erase ...* ( This i promise you )

Back from Batam yesterday ... a bit disappointed though ... coz not much of scenery to look at ... not much of places to go ... luckily it was just a 2 days 1 night trip .. lolz.. if not .. me going to suffer man ... their living standard damn low ... been travelling around ... cant even see any tall buildings ... no overhead bridges at all .... very very few traffic lights .. the lights are so dim ... quite useless ... no wonder accidents happen so often in tat country ... and hor.. i saw teenagers ard 14-18 years old riding motor-bikes ... passing us ... omg... so young... cant believe my own eyes ... and some even have 3 persons sitting on it ... their life are so carefree .... a bit envy but i still love my home, Singapore ...

went to one of their latest shopping mall , nothing to shop ... but the stuffs over there are considered quite cheap , examples like a can of lemon tea (cold) = 30 cent ... but in our resort room ... one can of cold sprite costed $2.50 if u wish to consume and a normal chicken chop with veggie can cost up to $10.... kaoz... first time i saw a can of cold drink and chicken chop can cost till so much sia... and those ppl over there tried to make almost everything to singapore dollars ... like wanan con tourists sia... lolz... bth... the resort facilities are quite ok ... not really a lot ... but still ok ... the only thing i dislike is .... every facilities will closed at 10pm sharp ... which mean 11pm in singapore time ... so early man ... i tot we should have some activities in the resort during the night .. in the end ... we ended up no choice but to sleep throughtout the night till the next morning ... argh... what a waste ... booked out at 12 noon .. take 1pm ferry from Batam .. and reached Singapore 30-45 mins ltr ... me bought a lot of tibits for my mum .. lolz... she will definitely like it ...

actually planned to go clubbing with jh, ys they all today ... then cant go coz i have to go visit my grandmother ... ;) sorry guys ... and to jh ... u now have only 6 more days to go NS ... lolz... enjoy urself ... what am i going to do for tml ? haiz... everyday seems quite aimless, meaningless for me ... erm... dunno what to blog now... hahaha... still troubled .... maybe one day ... just one day .... i will not be that troubled anymore .... but when will this day comes ... no one knows ...
~awaiting~ ....

*Wishing to have someone to call to every night b4 i sleep .... *

Going Batam tml ... lolz... have to wake up early in the morning to pack my stuffs ... and to reach world trade center by 9.30 am ... 2 days 1 night ... dun think i have much stuffs to bring also ... Junhui la... argh.. i didnt know Batam is a place well known for prostitutes ... -_- ... tat time i told weixia we are going to Batam ... and she also told me tat too ... lolz.. cant believe it .. but its all too late to change our mind le... coz we have already bought the tickets ... hahaha... going to Harris Resort together with jh ... sj and joshua ... 4 guys going Batam ... wtf.. lolz... if i am a girl ... i will also be mistaken tat the 4 of us are going to Batam for prostitutes lor.. but i heard jh said Batam had changed a lot ... lolz.. hope so bah..

me only went to malacca once together with my fellow prefects during secondary times ... then tats all .. lolz... somemore not staying overnight over there... just a day visit .. and came back during nightfall ... tats the first and my last to go overseas ... never been to johor ... never been to genting ... haiz.. so sad.. hahaha... and hor.. cruise me also never aboard b4 ... lolz..

went to cmpb to extend my passport with jh today ... then took cab down to world trade center to meet sj and joshua ... coz sj havent buy the tickets yet .... we had our dinner there .... ard 6.30 pm .. then took cab again to nus to meet ys, wx and those netball gals for netball ... quite enjoyable.. hate ys and jh to core man ...1 chat with ying xian ... another 1 touch her ... argh... 2 jerks.. lolz.. and me ... dun even have the guts to chat with her .... -_- but there will always be another tuesday ... ;) .. after playing ... have our supper at nearby shop for cheese prata ... damn nice.. then reached home ard 11pm++

i am now worried .... lolz.. coz wx told me tat joshua's pattern hor... if he wants ... he will really go for prostitutes ... then how? hahaa... for me to stop him ar... hard lor.. although i am curious also ... but i will 100% confident i wun go for this kinda of things wan lor... lets hope joshua, jh and sj can control themselves ... oops... now 12.42am liao... have to wake up at 6 ... lolz.. guess i should stop my blogging now... if not... tml sure cannot wake up ... have to get wx's digital camera in the morning also ... yawnz.. and last thing... hope nothing went wrong for the trip .... god bless us ... amen ... lolz... ;)

*Wishing to have someone to call to every night b4 i sleep*