sian .... this week no long weekend for me .... booked out yesterday afternoon ... and i need to report to camp by 2100 today ... haix .... quite tired ... last week was like a running week for us ... other than monday ... tuesday wednesday and friday run 2.4km ... thursday run slow pace for 5km ... and guess there will be longer distance run this week ...

i still cant swim after 2 to 3 swimming lessons ... my hands and legs cannot communicate leh ... cmi man .. lolz... but i still need to master the most basic breast stroke and trap water ... cause thats our "cat 2" test.. ( cat2 test = breaststroke swim for 100m, trapping water for 5 mins and jumping from the platform down into the pool of the height 5m)

hurted my kneecap yesterday during ippt skill training ... didnt land properly while doing the bunny jump ... now not much of the problem ... will be well for the coming training this week ... erm... this weekend i will be looking forward to ... cause of the labour day next monday ... and most likely will be having long weekends again ...

some of my army friends did some research for the "hell week" ... they said its very "xiong" .. lolz.. although now army is much more welfare ... but this hell week aint gotta be easy on us ...
imagine you will be training whole day and night ... and punish by them now and then ... 5 days 5 hrs of sleep ( if i'm not wrong) ... unable to tell you the details clearly now ... will be telling you all next blog ... those instructors even stationed a bell at one location for anyone to ring it ... meaning to give up ... and he will fail the hell week ... hope by then.. i am mentally and physically prepared for it ...

thats all for today ... more to come for next blog ... stay tune .. lolz.. please pardon me if i forget to update my blog ... sometimes i really forget about it ... take care everyone ...

Surprise!!!! i am able to blog on monday ... lolz.. all thanks to navy lor.. dragged us down to east coast park to help out the bialthon on saturday and sunday ... and friday no early book out for me ... sian leh.. friday we guys need to stay in and fall in at 6am the next morning for the bialthon rehearsal ... so many things to do sia.. erm ... if u ask me to use words to describe .. i guess we are being a slave over there ... the rehearsal ended at 1500 ... and we are released from there ... but i need to report back to camp that night 2200 .. argh.. o yah .. and we guys need to wake up on sunday 3am ..

1.5km swim and 10km run ... i am going to take part next year if i am well prepared ... its going to be very fun ... in the girls' open ... i was impressed by one girl at her early 20's ... she finished the race 1st with timing 1hr15mins ... i am wondering how come she so "li hai"... until today i read the newspaper ... then found out that she was from the national swimming team ... well... lolz..

actually we need to go back on tuesday 1300 ... but luckily WO rewards us by delaying the time to book in .. so tml i need to book in by 2100 ... hahaha... erm.. guess next week i will get to book out very soon ... so happy .. lolz.. i need to buy a running shoe this week ... the new balance and brooks from navy.. really cannot make it ... lousy shoe ... lousy support ... but look like i need to spend money again .. hai ...

*Never Say Die* <--- Copyright from sr ... lolz..

Finally ... never in my whole life that i cherish weekends ... now i do ... lolz.. got to book out on friday ... didnt really expected that ... though some of our batch people caught smoking red-handed ... guess they just give us face for the 1st week nia .. wun be so lucky the next time ...

everyday running and running ... doing push-ups ... visiting gym ... doing chin-ups ... early in the morning gotta fall in at 6am ... lunch at 12 noon ... dinner at 5pm ... night snack at 7pm ... oh gosh ... hahaa... 4 meals a day .... dun even dare to skip any of the meals ... scare later dun have energy to do those execrises .... all i know by the end of the BMT .. i need to get min. --> 12 chin-ups ... 2.4km run under 9.45 mins .... standing board jump 240cm ... shuttle run below 10 sec .. and 40 sit-ups ...

i believe as time goes by .... the bond will get stronger .... but still theres some guys i dislike ... their attitude and character cmi sia... not on de... complain here and there .... cant they just understand theres nothing much we can do .. other than to follow the rules and the instructions ..

went to grandmum house yesterday evening ... she cooked a lot for me ... hahaha ... of course ... her cooking is the best .... havent been eating anything nice inside the camp .. but hor.. there she goes again ... asked me a lot of personnal stuffs .. like got gf mah? where ur gf stay? how come didnt bring her over to ah ma's house? etc ... lolz... -_- ... buay ta han ... ;)

going to book in later this evening liao .. a bit sian ... my weekends are short ... i think i am booking out next sunday ... coz my side there got events on saturday ... still got 7 days more to go ... each and everyday i am counting the number of days to book out .... so pathetic ... lolz.. to console myself and the rest of the guys.. hahaha.. and HOPEFULLY there's no confinement this week ... as they already said ... everything including training will getting tougher and tougher ....
and hope everyone can united as one ... and everyone can pass the course ... to be a diver ... ;)

*No Pain No Gain ... 9th of March 2008 to ORD *

It has been 5 months ever since i stop blogging ... there's too much things to blog whats happening for these 5 months ... just state something will do i guess ... just want to update this blog once in a blue moon ...

17 days more to NDU ... actually theres too many friends that i wish to meet before i go army ... sec school mates , poly mates etc .... saw mavis at yiwei's house , well , guess it should be enough ... didnt talk to her though .. hopefully she can find her Mr.Right in NTU soon ..

missing lishan .... she's the girl that will be forever in my heart ... didnt contact her since we broke off years back ... i could not bring myself to call her even though her hp no. is still up in my head .. if i am not wrong , she is studying in SMU at the moment ... good luck to her studies ...

Annabelle ... this girl har , ... erm.. didnt tot of that i and her will be together in sec school .... guess fate brings us together ... she's older than me ... i gave her my "first time" ... lolz.. i mean my first kiss .... somemore i still remember the venue ... at ECP ... hahaha ... the longest relationship i ever involved .... =) ... happens to chat with her a couple of times recently ... but thanks to her for brighten up my sec school life .. she's a clever and lazy bum ... taking private Us now ... take care girl ...

Liew Weiling .... she's a friend of mine .. get to know her thru lishan and jinhui during poly times .. jinhui's ex .... cute , cheerful , adorable, native, blur, silly girl that i ever seen before ... hanging out with her , the atmosphere will never be tensed up ... once she starts laughing ... haha ... u really feel like walking a distance away from her ... she will attracts attention man ... lolz ... didnt get to contact her ever since i broke off with lishan ... which is 3 years back ... i regretted ... Ironically ... u know what? she met with an motorbike accident this month and no longer be with us ... went to her funeral ... how much i miss her laugher and her lousy singing ...
shes just at her early 20s ... haiz...

that teaches me a lesson ... life and love is really unpredictable ... Its easy to be content with life ... but hard to live without regrets ....

just maybe i should close this blog ... dunno wat to say or do ... feeling sad and down .... the chapter of this r/s is going to end .... i cried ... always tot i can cherish this r/s well .. but then ... i fail to do so ...

sorry ...

I am very very disappointed ... angry .... and even feel like crying .... whats the point of saying sorry again and again if you remain unchanged .... why you have to be so self-centered ...??? Am i a nobody to you afterall ??? I'm not tired meh? .....

Why cant you just put yourself in my shoe , and understand how i am feeling at the moment ?? ... What else u have to say then ? sorry again ??

Simply no mood at all .... and tot today my off day will be a good one for me .... and once again ... it turns out to be like this .... What the **** ....

Dun feel like saying it liao .. it just blows my top ... Bye !!!!

gotta end of august soon ... everything happens so fast ... this couple of days ... damn crowded at cold storage ... dun have the time to just slack around man ... although now cold storage is not as fun and enjoyable as before ... but still not bad after all ... anyway ... most probably i'll be quitting the job around Oct or Nov ... gotta give myself some time to play and fool around before i go army ...

been thinking a lot of things .... such as "should i sign-on?", " sign-on as ? " , " should i study the course (design) i am really interested in ?" , "how expensive it gotta be ?" , etc .... simply too much for me to note it all down ... guess everyone will reach this stage where you are standing in the middle of the junction .. and there is different direction for you to choose from ... once u choose the wrong direction .. its petty hard for you to go back again ... i dun wish to regret what i did in the past ... by taking IT course ..

really feel like studying after army ... but i know its gotta be very expensive .... or should i stop wasting $$ to study .. the situation now is that theres no way for me to save up tat much of $$ for me myself to study what i really want ... till now ... i'm giving half of my salary to my parents .... and thats really left me with not much ... i believe i go army .. they will still request for spilting half my salary to give them as allowance .... if thats the way ... how long will i have to save the $$ enable to study ....

i'm still 20 ... i know i'm not that young anymore ... but i still wanan to play and do things i feel and wanna to do ... but now ... looks like i'm starting to support my family ... the burden will be heavier as i getting older ... i am tired ... and restless .... and i am complaining why i am broke most of the times ... perhaps i need some fresh air to breathe .... i hope they wun hinder what i wanna pursue ... the happiest thing on earth is do the things you wanna do ... live without regrets ... and thats what life is all about ... dun you think so ? ...